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I dont think people with no drug experience or connections should be looking or asking for drugs. It's a good way to get ripped off, beat up, stalked or worse in trouble. Crime isn't anything to dabble in. Not worth it folks.
 
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Yes, but depression and desperation drive people to take risks. Also, every addict had to start somewhere.

Instead if coming here and making vague, blanket statements about what people should and should not do, how about being supportive to people in that situation? Talk to them. Learn about their situation. Offer some better advice than "Don't do it".
 
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copioushopelessness

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Yes, but depression and desperation drive people to take risks. Also, every addict had to start somewhere.

Instead if coming here and making vague, blanket statements about what people should and should not do, how about being supportive to people in that situation? Talk to them. Learn about their situation. Offer some better advice than "Don't do it".
I know all about depression and desperation. This isn't vague I think it is a pretty straightforward statment. This is supportive. I wish people would think twice before finding a fate worse than death. Addiction is no walk in the park, neither is prison. Anyone have questions they can ask. What better advice should I offer? This site is mostly teens DON'T DO DRUGS KIDS! "Every addict had to start somewhere" almost sounds like you're encouraging addiction. What advice do you have to offer? What do you know about that life? Drugs ain't it, they ruin lives.
DO ALL THE DRUGS YOU WANT. Just know what you're doing and the risks. Idgaf actually.
Just know the risks before taking them...
Just know the risks before taking them...
Yeah plenty of people got some dope and died but it's typically accidental and tragic. If it were as easy as finding some and od-ing on the first try there wouldn't be as many addicts.
You're most likely going to be sold starch, powered sugar something they cut it with and xylazine or some other type of tranq. It's more filler than drug. There's really no way to know what you're getting. Xylazine is taking over. Besides ods aren't always as peaceful as everyone thinks. It's not always instant. You wanna be choking on your own vomit and hyperventilating for hours? Each od is vastly different.
 
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I dont think people with no drug experience or connections should be looking or asking for drugs. It's a good way to get ripped off, beat up, stalked or worse in trouble. Crime isn't anything to dabble in. Not worth it folks.
this is the most out of touch post i ever seen. mf u are in a suicide forum , u think people give a fuck if it puts them in danger?
"I am not in danger, Skyler. I am the danger."
 
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Fentanyl isn't as euphoric and peaceful as heroin. Heroin is hard to find now. Opiates cause extreme nausea, headaches and irritability in high doses. It's called "opiate irritability"
If it doesn't kill you right off then you feel like you're suffocating. There. I just squashed your "oh it's so peaceful" theory. If you want to be moaning and groaning and wake up in a pile of your own sick then go for it. If you want to sound like you don't know what you're talking about trying to find drugs then have fun trying to buy from an undercover cop or from some sketchball who's going to walk off with your cash and not return.
this is the most out of touch post i ever seen. mf u are in a suicide forum , u think people give a fuck if it puts them in danger?
"I am not in danger, Skyler. I am the danger."
Dude if it were that simple I'd be taking the shit right now. I'm just saying a bunch of people who have no idea how to even ask for drugs are posting. Like "sir may I have a crumb of fentanyl" at least know how to find it without sounding like a naive narc. Who cares about the danger in a suicide forum, sure, but there's no guarantee you're even going to die. I'm basically saying if you sound like an idiot you're probably going to get busted by an undercover cop or busted in the lip for asking people for drugs. People in that life don't like to be asked by people who have no clue.
You know what's out of touch, dweebs asking for drugs.
How is someone with more experience than 99% of you "out of touch"
I've seen posts way more "out of touch"
Peace be with you all. Happy drug seeking. I really don't care. It's just obvious most people don't even know where to start. What do you want, drug procuring advice? It's not that simple. Seasoned druggies have to search all day to find what they are looking for. It's not as simple as buying weed. You'd have better luck sucking some d behind a gas station for it than asking this stupid forum.
 
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again , u r trying to give an advice to a suicidal person to give up on attempting ; Doesnt mean how much experience u have , ur advice means absolutely nothing. if instead , u tried to make a post to explain how people and dweebs should interact with drug sellers and basically give them some sort of information that helps them get by. that would be usefull.
u are just out here being an asshole lol
 
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again , u r trying to give an advice to a suicidal person to give up on attempting ; Doesnt mean how much experience u have , ur advice means absolutely nothing. if instead , u tried to make a post to explain how people and dweebs should interact with drug sellers and basically give them some sort of information that helps them get by. that would be usefull.
u are just out here being an asshole lol
Asshole, realistic, idc anymore. I'm a suicidal person afterall, it doesn't really matter what people think of me anymore. I used to care. I'm saying it's just not typically a straightforward transaction. What if you found some then didn't die? Then you'd have to do it again. And again. Ope now you're addicted and your family hates you and homeless. Drugs are glorified. It's an awful lifestyle.
I'm just wondering, what advice are people expecting to get when it comes to drugs? It's hard without connections. Go to the ghetto and ask random people. Buy some pressed pills off the dark web if you know how. Finding uncut drugs isn't that easy.
 
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Fentanyl isn't as euphoric and peaceful as heroin. Heroin is hard to find now. Opiates cause extreme nausea, headaches and irritability in high doses. It's called "opiate irritability"
If it doesn't kill you right off then you feel like you're suffocating. There. I just squashed your "oh it's so peaceful" theory. If you want to be moaning and groaning and wake up in a pile of your own sick then go for it. If you want to sound like you don't know what you're talking about trying to find drugs then have fun trying to buy from an undercover cop or from some sketchball who's going to walk off with your cash and not return.

Dude if it were that simple I'd be taking the shit right now. I'm just saying a bunch of people who have no idea how to even ask for drugs are posting. Like "sir may I have a crumb of fentanyl" at least know how to find it without sounding like a naive narc. Who cares about the danger in a suicide forum, sure, but there's no guarantee you're even going to die. I'm basically saying if you sound like an idiot you're probably going to get busted by an undercover cop or busted in the lip for asking people for drugs. People in that life don't like to be asked by people who have no clue.
You know what's out of touch, dweebs asking for drugs.
How is someone with more experience than 99% of you "out of touch"
I've seen posts way more "out of touch"
Peace be with you all. Happy drug seeking. I really don't care. It's just obvious most people don't even know where to start. What do you want, drug procuring advice? It's not that simple. Seasoned druggies have to search all day to find what they are looking for. It's not as simple as buying weed. You'd have better luck sucking some d behind a gas station for it than asking this stupid forum.
This is great experience and would be nice for you to share this. This forum loves information. However, coming here and just calling people names and yelling at them not to do drugs is not productive. If you made a thread calmly expressing your thoughts, it might be helpful for some.
 
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Asshole, realistic, idc anymore. I'm a suicidal person afterall, it doesn't really matter what people think of me anymore. I used to care. I'm saying it's just not typically a straightforward transaction. What if you found some then didn't die? Then you'd have to do it again. And again. Ope now you're addicted and your family hates you and homeless. Drugs are glorified. It's an awful lifestyle.
I'm just wondering, what advice are people expecting to get when it comes to drugs? It's hard without connections. Go to the ghetto and ask random people. Buy some pressed pills off the dark web if you know how. Finding uncut drugs isn't that easy.
Everyone hates life. Even happy people sometimes. Im sure we are all frustrated how difficult ctb can be. If it were easier to die that'd be cool.
Stay in school, get good grades, get a good job and get away from your asshole parents. Vaca to peru, do some ayahuasca, have some experiences. That's the advice I wish I took
 
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As someone who is (sadly) experiencied with drugs equally, I think a ressource post where others could add advice on "what and what not" to do and watch out for would be useful for many on here too desperate and frankly depressed to give a damn otherwise and safely prepare for such a interaction/transaction. Because the reality is they will do it anyway.
 
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We are all hoping for a peaceful way to die but that's pretty close to impossible. I'm pretty sure most people are like "oh shit" right before they die. The reality is if someone is serious about it they obviously have to face some fear. Even if you're lucky enough to not feel pain there's still anxiety before snorting the line. You know what's not painless, waking up from an od puking your guts out then trying to take an opiate dump and not being able to for a week. Od-ing can honestly feel like crap.
You know what would suck, being woken up with narcan by a cop. By all means try to find it, I'm envious of anyone who does go that way if they intended to. Long story short it's just not as easy as asking people on the internet how to get drugs. Find someone who knows about drugs and ask them in person. Still sketch. Who wants a paper trail. No one here can tell you how to get drugs on the streets. And I personally don't want to take the risk of ordering them. Not that tech savvy anyway.
Od can fail miserably.
Honestly think ya'll are assholes too. I've been supportive to many people in many situations. Judge me all you want but none of you strangers know what I have and would do for people.
As someone who is (sadly) experiencied with drugs equally, I think a ressource post where others could add advice on "what and what not" to do and watch out for would be useful for many on here too desperate and frankly depressed to give a damn otherwise and safely prepare for such a interaction/transaction. Because the reality is they will do it anyway.
Yeah I agree but that's basically what I mean I guess. There are definite dos and don'ts. Don't just straight up ask for drugs for starters. That's rule one, play it cool, know the lingo, know who to go to.
All my connects are dead or in prison or too sketchy to deal with. I guess I'm just frustrated. SORRY Y'ALL. I'd be long gone otherwise.
We are all hoping for a peaceful way to die but that's pretty close to impossible. I'm pretty sure most people are like "oh shit" right before they die. The reality is if someone is serious about it they obviously have to face some fear. Even if you're lucky enough to not feel pain there's still anxiety before snorting the line. You know what's not painless, waking up from an od puking your guts out then trying to take an opiate dump and not being able to for a week. Od-ing can honestly feel like crap.
You know what would suck, being woken up with narcan by a cop. By all means try to find it, I'm envious of anyone who does go that way if they intended to. Long story short it's just not as easy as asking people on the internet how to get drugs. Find someone who knows about drugs and ask them in person. Still sketch. Who wants a paper trail. No one here can tell you how to get drugs on the streets. And I personally don't want to take the risk of ordering them. Not that tech savvy anyway.
Od can fail miserably.
Honestly think ya'll are assholes too. I've been supportive to many people in many situations. Judge me all you want but none of you strangers know what I have and would do for people.

Yeah I agree but that's basically what I mean I guess. There are definite dos and don'ts. Don't just straight up ask for drugs for starters. That's rule one, play it cool, know the lingo, know who to go to.
All my connects are dead or in prison or too sketchy to deal with. I guess I'm just frustrated. SORRY Y'ALL. I'd be long gone otherwise.
I guess to anyone who hasn't done drugs if you do go that way, I would leave a note that it was intentional and that you haven't been doing it otherwise everyone is just going to call you a junkie when you die. If you care about that.. if not *shrug* my best friend killed himself with it on his first try. Everyone calls him a druggie now and he fucking wasn't even close to that. Pisses me off. If you don't care about your reputation, decide whether you care about humilating your family. But yeah when we finally decide to go nothing really matters.
We are all hoping for a peaceful way to die but that's pretty close to impossible. I'm pretty sure most people are like "oh shit" right before they die. The reality is if someone is serious about it they obviously have to face some fear. Even if you're lucky enough to not feel pain there's still anxiety before snorting the line. You know what's not painless, waking up from an od puking your guts out then trying to take an opiate dump and not being able to for a week. Od-ing can honestly feel like crap.
You know what would suck, being woken up with narcan by a cop. By all means try to find it, I'm envious of anyone who does go that way if they intended to. Long story short it's just not as easy as asking people on the internet how to get drugs. Find someone who knows about drugs and ask them in person. Still sketch. Who wants a paper trail. No one here can tell you how to get drugs on the streets. And I personally don't want to take the risk of ordering them. Not that tech savvy anyway.
Od can fail miserably.
Honestly think ya'll are assholes too. I've been supportive to many people in many situations. Judge me all you want but none of you strangers know what I have and would do for people.

Yeah I agree but that's basically what I mean I guess. There are definite dos and don'ts. Don't just straight up ask for drugs for starters. That's rule one, play it cool, know the lingo, know who to go to.
All my connects are dead or in prison or too sketchy to deal with. I guess I'm just frustrated. SORRY Y'ALL. I'd be long gone otherwise.

I guess to anyone who hasn't done drugs if you do go that way, I would leave a note that it was intentional and that you haven't been doing it otherwise everyone is just going to call you a junkie when you die. If you care about that.. if not *shrug* my best friend killed himself with it on his first try. Everyone calls him a druggie now and he fucking wasn't even close to that. Pisses me off. If you don't care about your reputation, decide whether you care about humilating your family. But yeah when we finally decide to go nothing really matters.
You also risk putting people in jail, so you better do enough to be out for good or there's gonna be some really pissed off people. Cops are definitely going to go through your phone, especially if you die unexpectedly. Even if it's not drugs, cops always go through phones when people die to first, make sure it was a suicide and secondly to figure out why you did it.
What's not fun is living with brain damage.
Wiping out your phone won't work either. Data can be retrieved.
Like my mom always said, BE GOOD OR BE GOOD AT IT. Honestly I'm dumb for even being on this forum but hey I was depressed desperate and wanted to take the RISK.
Drug addicts are VERY unpredictable people they can change their mind one second to the next. They don't even know what they are going to do. Most of them are in psychosis. They assume everyone is a rat, even their friends, because, let's be honest, druggies rat eachother out all the time. So yeah, imo it's just not a fun experience trying to find them. Sketchy mofos will make you wish you just jumped in front of a bus. Ugh I hate dealing with weirdos.
I've been sober a long time, I was never a consistent user, a binge user, I'd use for a couple days then stop, then go back to it every now and then. I'm still living with the consequences, I still have constant flashbacks, I still have nightmares every night and can't fall into deep sleep. I wake up every 20 mins or less. I TRIED TO DIE MANY TIMES. I truly envy those who manage to die on their first try. Keep what's left of your brains people. Please. Nothing is worse than having permanent physical and mental damage. I AM TRULY LIVING A FATE WORSE THAN DEATH.
GOODLUCK IN LIFE AND DEATH
We are all hoping for a peaceful way to die but that's pretty close to impossible. I'm pretty sure most people are like "oh shit" right before they die. The reality is if someone is serious about it they obviously have to face some fear. Even if you're lucky enough to not feel pain there's still anxiety before snorting the line. You know what's not painless, waking up from an od puking your guts out then trying to take an opiate dump and not being able to for a week. Od-ing can honestly feel like crap.
You know what would suck, being woken up with narcan by a cop. By all means try to find it, I'm envious of anyone who does go that way if they intended to. Long story short it's just not as easy as asking people on the internet how to get drugs. Find someone who knows about drugs and ask them in person. Still sketch. Who wants a paper trail. No one here can tell you how to get drugs on the streets. And I personally don't want to take the risk of ordering them. Not that tech savvy anyway.
Od can fail miserably.
Honestly think ya'll are assholes too. I've been supportive to many people in many situations. Judge me all you want but none of you strangers know what I have and would do for people.

Yeah I agree but that's basically what I mean I guess. There are definite dos and don'ts. Don't just straight up ask for drugs for starters. That's rule one, play it cool, know the lingo, know who to go to.
All my connects are dead or in prison or too sketchy to deal with. I guess I'm just frustrated. SORRY Y'ALL. I'd be long gone otherwise.

I guess to anyone who hasn't done drugs if you do go that way, I would leave a note that it was intentional and that you haven't been doing it otherwise everyone is just going to call you a junkie when you die. If you care about that.. if not *shrug* my best friend killed himself with it on his first try. Everyone calls him a druggie now and he fucking wasn't even close to that. Pisses me off. If you don't care about your reputation, decide whether you care about humilating your family. But yeah when we finally decide to go nothing really matters.

You also risk putting people in jail, so you better do enough to be out for good or there's gonna be some really pissed off people. Cops are definitely going to go through your phone, especially if you die unexpectedly. Even if it's not drugs, cops always go through phones when people die to first, make sure it was a suicide and secondly to figure out why you did it.
What's not fun is living with brain damage.
Wiping out your phone won't work either. Data can be retrieved.
Like my mom always said, BE GOOD OR BE GOOD AT IT. Honestly I'm dumb for even being on this forum but hey I was depressed desperate and wanted to take the RISK.
Drug addicts are VERY unpredictable people they can change their mind one second to the next. They don't even know what they are going to do. Most of them are in psychosis. They assume everyone is a rat, even their friends, because, let's be honest, druggies rat eachother out all the time. So yeah, imo it's just not a fun experience trying to find them. Sketchy mofos will make you wish you just jumped in front of a bus. Ugh I hate dealing with weirdos.
I've been sober a long time, I was never a consistent user, a binge user, I'd use for a couple days then stop, then go back to it every now and then. I'm still living with the consequences, I still have constant flashbacks, I still have nightmares every night and can't fall into deep sleep. I wake up every 20 mins or less. I TRIED TO DIE MANY TIMES. I truly envy those who manage to die on their first try. Keep what's left of your brains people. Please. Nothing is worse than having permanent physical and mental damage. I AM TRULY LIVING A FATE WORSE THAN DEATH.
GOODLUCK IN LIFE AND DEATH
If you want to go from a nice lifestyle to living in the ghetto. Try drugs. Even once is enough to ruin your life. I DIDNT EVEN GET MYSELF HOOKED, THE DOCTORS DID. that's why doctors don't prescribe shit anymore, they got everyone hooked. Living with the amount of physical pain I'm in with no pain relief is INHUMANE. Ive mixed insane amounts of drugs and still lived. Benzos and opiates would be ideal but I've tried. I've taken two bottles of xanax bars the highest dose of xanax, 8 bags of strong heroin shit tons of booze and other drugs at once and didn't die. Then there are times I've almost died from a small amount. It depends greatly on many factors.
 
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Fentanyl isn't as euphoric and peaceful as heroin. Heroin is hard to find now. Opiates cause extreme nausea, headaches and irritability in high doses. It's called "opiate irritability"
If it doesn't kill you right off then you feel like you're suffocating. There. I just squashed your "oh it's so peaceful" theory. If you want to be moaning and groaning and wake up in a pile of your own sick then go for it. If you want to sound like you don't know what you're talking about trying to find drugs then have fun trying to buy from an undercover cop or from some sketchball who's going to walk off with your cash and not return.

Dude if it were that simple I'd be taking the shit right now. I'm just saying a bunch of people who have no idea how to even ask for drugs are posting. Like "sir may I have a crumb of fentanyl" at least know how to find it without sounding like a naive narc. Who cares about the danger in a suicide forum, sure, but there's no guarantee you're even going to die. I'm basically saying if you sound like an idiot you're probably going to get busted by an undercover cop or busted in the lip for asking people for drugs. People in that life don't like to be asked by people who have no clue.
You know what's out of touch, dweebs asking for drugs.
How is someone with more experience than 99% of you "out of touch"
I've seen posts way more "out of touch"
Peace be with you all. Happy drug seeking. I really don't care. It's just obvious most people don't even know where to start. What do you want, drug procuring advice? It's not that simple. Seasoned druggies have to search all day to find what they are looking for. It's not as simple as buying weed. You'd have better luck sucking some d behind a gas station for it than asking this stupid forum.
funny enough i just ran into a guy that sells shrooms lmao
 
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copioushopelessness

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LOOKING AT A DUDE RIGHT NOW WHO'S CLEARLY IMPATIENTLY WAITING FOR SOME DRUGS ON THE CORNER. SHOULD I BE LIKE YO, WHAT'S GOOD?
funny enough i just ran into a guy that sells shrooms lmao
People with shrooms are typically more laid back new age types lol. Other drugs are a different ballgame
LOOKING AT A DUDE RIGHT NOW WHO'S CLEARLY IMPATIENTLY WAITING FOR SOME DRUGS ON THE CORNER. SHOULD I BE LIKE YO, WHAT'S GOOD?

People with shrooms are typically more laid back new age types lol. Other drugs are a different ballgame
Even people with hard drugs are typically hesitant to give them to people. Even to other addicts because everyone is afraid that someone might od. Fet is a tight knit type of people
It's easier to find wack ass crack
It's easier to find wack ass crack
It's easier to find wack ass crack
I'd why my replies are multiplying my bad. I live in a laggy area.
Sorry for saying "dweebs" I'm a total dweeb.
 
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