Dreaming; My favourite part of the day

[ValkyrieCain]

The saddest thing about dreaming is waking up , oh how I wished I could lay on my bed and be entrapped in a dream forever with nothing to wake me up, I want to dream and dream and dream , I sleep a lot during the day, most of my time currently is spent sleeping, why ? Because I want to dream ( and Im highly unmotivated).

When I dream it brings me closure, in my dreams my thoughts don't feel bound, I don't feel restricted by my mental barriers that affect me in real life, Im not plagued by the issues I'm facing in real life. In my dreams I feel free; I meet new people, I travel to different places, I form relationships that go well, I go out with friends and genuinely enjoy myself, the most fun I've been having for the past couple of months have all been in my dreams, the most people I spoke to over the past couple of months have all been in my dreams, even family member that im no longer in contact with, I meet them in my dreams and we get along together, sometimes when I wake up from a dream I can continue that dream from where I left off if I fall asleep immediately again , I love when it happens; a longer continuation of my favourite reality.

My dreams comfort me while I have them, my only problem is that after a few minutes of waking up I know what happened in the dream and can recall many bits of the dream but I forgot them after. In my dreams I feel alive , im not confounded by anything in the world, nor do I feel unmotivated in my dreams. Some dreams I even fly, I eat in my dreams I do things in my dreams that I crave to do in real life that I can't,

In real life there's been many people I've offended that we split apart and don't talk anymore, but in my dreams I sometimes meet those very same people and apologies to them and explain myself, which brings my spirit closure, then disappointment after I wake up and figure it was still a dream but the closure is still there for my spirit , but the disappointment lingers in my flesh body.

How I wish I can be a a constant state of dreaming experiencing life in my dreams constantly without waking up, sometimes I tell myself that my dreams are real life while this state im in is just a freak dream in itself called "reality".
The dream called reality has been the longest nightmare I find myself in , I can't escape it, and I remember it vividly. If waking up from this dream called reality requires me to die killing myself, I wonder would I wake up from this bad dream ?

 

[atre]

Now that's something I can relate to very closely.

Dreaming feels more thrilling and even more "real" than real life for me. Might be weird to hear, but I believe even a nasty nightmare is better than feeling nothing. As someone who has been suffering from major depressive disorder for almost 9 years, even a negative feeling like a nightmare feels more preferable to me (because the alternative is the numbness I feel during the day).

I even had a weird obsession with lucid dreaming a couple years ago which I had to stop eventually because of the physical tiredness and sleepiness that came with excessive lucid dreaming.

I remember once seeing a dream which was so fullfilling that it left me in an agitated state for 2 weeks straight.

 

[H0110W]

I always have vivid nightmares lately. On effexor I had the strangest and most beautiful movie-like dreams. On vortioxetine, which is not working for me so far, I'm back having my " normal " nightmares I had before getting on effexor. And also sleep paralysis sometimes. My life is a neverending nightmare lately, i hate every second and every person, and I have hypersomnia plus vivid nightmares that just fuck me up for several hours after waking up, assuming I can wake up and I don't get sleep paralysis.

 

[LukaParrot]

I really understand you, sleep and dream when you life is a nightmare is such a relief, you can rest without paintful thoughts.

After passing a lot in life, depression and loneliness are tough ones and I can understand why some people use drugs, alcohol to escape for just a little of reality. But that's a really bad way and may not having a wayback. So, never mess up with those.

I shouldnt but... I was supposed to take 0.5g Alprazolam in beginning of the day with antidepressives and 0.5g Alprazolam at night to rest, but I'm taking 1g at night, I really enjoy not waking up at 6AM with my thoughts.

I know dreams are fantasy of our imagination, but dream about deceased dog, sometimes with my father and even see the woman that was the love of my life sometimes is great (I wasnt good enough for her and as single she had a bunch of boyfriends, modern days, it's her life, but my pain).

 

[ValkyrieCain]

Now that's something I can relate to very closely.

Dreaming feels more thrilling and even more "real" than real life for me. Might be weird to hear, but I believe even a nasty nightmare is better than feeling nothing. As someone who has been suffering from major depressive disorder for almost 9 years, even a negative feeling like a nightmare feels more preferable to me (because the alternative is the numbness I feel during the day).

I even had a weird obsession with lucid dreaming a couple years ago which I had to stop eventually because of the physical tiredness and sleepiness that came with excessive lucid dreaming.

I remember once seeing a dream which was so fullfilling that it left me in an agitated state for 2 weeks straight.

I also had an obsession with lucid dreaming and astral projects using hypnosis audios, one of my attempts to astral project turned out badly when I felt vibrations through my entire body and basically floaty, I freaked out and didn't ground myself afterwards, I had nightmares and sleep paralysis for almost a month after this including false awakenings ,and one nightmare would always be the same reoccurring one.

One thing I wish I had the ability to do is retain all information from my dreams without having to write them down. Some dreams feel like so progressional like impactful on your life then you wake up to only find out it was a dream , the biggest disappointment ... then you slowly forget the intricate details of such dreams ...

It's not weird to hear when you state that dreaming feels more thrilling and more real than real life, I feel the same way. The only NIGHTMARE I constantly have is when I wake up to reality.

I always have vivid nightmares lately. On effexor I had the strangest and most beautiful movie-like dreams. On vortioxetine, which is not working for me so far, I'm back having my " normal " nightmares I had before getting on effexor. And also sleep paralysis sometimes. My life is a neverending nightmare lately, i hate every second and every person, and I have hypersomnia plus vivid nightmares that just fuck me up for several hours after waking up, assuming I can wake up and I don't get sleep paralysis.

I had so much sleep paralysis when I was on venlafaxine , they happened so often and I could even predict when. my next sleep paralysis episode was going to take place before it even happened based on my body signals.

I really understand you, sleep and dream when you life is a nightmare is such a relief, you can rest without paintful thoughts.

After passing a lot in life, depression and loneliness are tough ones and I can understand why some people use drugs, alcohol to escape for just a little of reality. But that's a really bad way and may not having a wayback. So, never mess up with those.

I shouldnt but... I was supposed to take 0.5g Alprazolam in beginning of the day with antidepressives and 0.5g Alprazolam at night to rest, but I'm taking 1g at night, I really enjoy not waking up at 6AM with my thoughts.

I know dreams are fantasy of our imagination, but dream about deceased dog, sometimes with my father and even see the woman that was the love of my life sometimes is great (I wasnt good enough for her and as single she had a bunch of boyfriends, modern days, it's her life, but my pain).

I used drugs to cope during and after a relationship that went sour , that lasted around 5 months ; ket, rosin, spice vape juice and shrooms , I think using drugs often paired with my high dose of antidepressants is what triggered my psychosis . I was able to pull myself off it completely thou, after Jesus done a miracle in my life that saved me from the damage the drugs done to my body.

Sometimes dreams even bring closure that can't be had in real life , to the point waking up is the first biggest disappointment of the day. I think most dreams while being fantasy , there's a deeper spiritual aspect to it.

 

[foreverlanguish]

I also had an obsession with lucid dreaming and astral projects using hypnosis audios, one of my attempts to astral project turned out badly when I felt vibrations through my entire body and basically floaty, I freaked out and didn't ground myself afterwards, I had nightmares and sleep paralysis for almost a month after this including false awakenings ,and one nightmare would always be the same reoccurring one.

One thing I wish I had the ability to do is retain all information from my dreams without having to write them down. Some dreams feel like so progressional like impactful on your life then you wake up to only find out it was a dream , the biggest disappointment ... then you slowly forget the intricate details of such dreams ...

It's not weird to hear when you state that dreaming feels more thrilling and more real than real life, I feel the same way. The only NIGHTMARE I constantly have is when I wake up to reality.

I had so much sleep paralysis when I was on venlafaxine , they happened so often and I could even predict when. my next sleep paralysis episode was going to take place before it even happened based on my body signals.

I used drugs to cope during and after a relationship that went sour , that lasted around 5 months ; ket, rosin, spice vape juice and shrooms , I think using drugs often paired with my high dose of antidepressants is what triggered my psychosis . I was able to pull myself off it completely thou, after Jesus done a miracle in my life that saved me from the damage the drugs done to my body.

Sometimes dreams even bring closure that can't be had in real life , to the point waking up is the first biggest disappointment of the day. I think most dreams while being fantasy , there's a deeper spiritual aspect to it.

I had a similar experience to what you said when you astral projected. Now I don't know if it was actually an astral project but it really felt like one. After I dreamt I suddenly found myself floating in space, going around Earth, and then I suddenly felt this really strange sweeping floaty feeling? It was really scary, and I woke up soon after. I've felt this feeling before when I was awake many times too, during when I listened to those guided meditation audios, and it wasn't as scary. I also agree that dreams have a spiritual aspect to them sometimes.