Venting Dopamine Is One Hell Of A Drug

[RedPanda]

Phew, it seems like endless distractions and experiences have truly been keeping my brain preoccupied. I've been overdosing on dopamine. Traveling everywhere, doing daring adrenaline activities, it's keeping me distracted.

What is strange is that I'm actually a functioning human-being when I'm distracted BUT boy oh boy, once u get off the bullet train of dopamine fixes you come crashing down hard, that's why I'm posting on here again.

It's true, the thoughts of suicide will NEVER EVER go away. Once I snap back to reality and realize that I'm still alive, that is when I get depressed and want to end it. Nothing i've ever done actually matters. We don't matter, YOU don't even matter. Life is pointless but distractions keep me going, for now.

Dopamine is one hell of a drug.

 

[hopelessdreams]

totally agree. i'm just living life rn to chase those dopamine highs, they're addicting

 

[RedPanda]

totally agree. i'm just living life rn to chase those dopamine highs, they're addicting

Very, very addicting.

 

[actual_fox]

Yeah. I do the same thing. Games, laughing, porn. But when It fades away It is shit. Some say that I am addicted to said things but Imo they make life okish.
And fucking world is sad place. Without copes I would drown in sadness and bleakness. It is so quiet and empty, there is nothing to be for.

 

[Obliviate]

Dopamine is that happy neurotransmitter. and it can also make one delusional when they disregard or hide from the horrors, truth, reality of the world. The whole forced positivity shit reminds me of that creepy "Smile" movie

 

[👁️👃👁️]

Coming off that high right now. I feel you.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm pleased for you that you have managed to find a way to make existing less torturous. At least in my case I wish to die all of the time, upon every waking moment is thoughts of how much I despise existing and how it would be so ideal to permanently not exist.

But it's true that any kind of distraction could never really remove the pain that existing brings or change the harsh reality of this existence. Anything seen as being somehow positive only serves as a way to create more suffering when that thing is finally taken away or ends, it's just the reality of existing. Humans spend their lives trying to fulfil endless needs, to me it's all so tedious and empty, existing really does serve no purpose, I see it as being tragic how life evolved in the first place, no wonder so many ctb to set themselves free from existence which is the true burden and curse.

 

[Hollowman]

Be glad your dopamine receptors aren't fried like mine. I haven't had any kind of high for years.

 

[rockyraccoon]

When I get on that dopamine train it feels really good. Especially with being bipolar it can get me to a point where I feel obsessed with completing the next goal. When I reach it or forget it though I come back to reality.

Of course life is about setting goals and constant striving. That's part of living a normal life is to reach the next thing, the goal isn't the important part, it's the active striving.

 

[RedPanda]

Yup I'm still chasing these dopamine highs but reaching the end of my rope now.