Doot.

[hamnspammaam]

Going to set the alarm and carry out my plan right now. I'm doing a full suspension hanging. Not the bridge. I found a spot at my house to fully support my weight. I'll just do it when everyone is asleep. Kinda upset my last memory will be shitty and cold, but that's my fault for visualizing feeling some peace before I actually die. Thank you for the resources. That is all.

 

[Stan]

I wish you peace

 

[Suicidal4Ever]

Going to set the alarm and carry out my plan right now. I'm doing a full suspension hanging. Not the bridge. I found a spot at my house to fully support my weight. I'll just do it when everyone is asleep. Kinda upset my last memory will be shitty and cold, but that's my fault for visualizing feeling some peace before I actually die. Thank you for the resources. That is all.

Full is a method that makes a lot of noise isn't it. People usually have music in the background to drown it out.

 

[JimFord99]

All the best, have a save and peaceful journey.

 

[hamnspammaam]

Full is a method that makes a lot of noise isn't it. People usually have music in the background to drown it out.

Damn. Music would create the opposite effect, and I just remembered my dogs were outside, too. It'll be set back a couple hours, but I can still do it. It's fine.

 

[Rachel74]

Damn. Music would create the opposite effect, and I just remembered my dogs were outside, too. It'll be set back a couple hours, but I can still do it. It's fine.

Why the rush friend x

 

[peacetoall]

Going to set the alarm and carry out my plan right now. I'm doing a full suspension hanging. Not the bridge. I found a spot at my house to fully support my weight. I'll just do it when everyone is asleep. Kinda upset my last memory will be shitty and cold, but that's my fault for visualizing feeling some peace before I actually die. Thank you for the resources. That is all.

Why not hold off a little until your last memories are better? It's your choice, but I am just advising that you wait and leave with a happy last memory. Peace and love

 

[hamnspammaam]

Why not hold off a little until your last memories are better? It's your choice, but I am just advising that you wait and leave with a happy last memory. Peace and love

Tbh. Me putting it off is part of the reason my last memory will be somwhat crud. You guys helped me feel a little better, but if I had died sooner. I would be happy. It'll take years of shit to crawl out of this hole of poverty I was born into. I'd rather not. I'm a loser. No friends. In fact I told someone who I thought was a friend. They blocked me everywhere. Hardly call that sack of rats a family. Yeah. I'm not doing anything spectacular with college, so not curing cancer or whatever. Time to go.

 

[ProlongedSentence]

Your dogs will know. They may start howling.

My dog is my only friend.

She deserved better than me.
The depression is long term unresolved and clinical now.

I tried so hard to fight this. I really did. But I kept being hit by what no one will validate. What I can only describe as curses.
This is such a dark world.

I am so sorry for failing my dog. She never asked anything of me but to be loved, fed, exercised and to share time with her trying to find joy in life. hamnspammaam I wish you were not doing what you have planned. It sounds like torture and punishment.
No one deserves that. :(
Hope this message goes through. It is my second time trying to write it. First failed and was lost. <3

 

[Sadwind]

I hope it goes well for you ham, however you decide. Sorry to see you go

 

[hamnspammaam]

Why the rush friend x

As guy put it, I'm lazy.

 

[okaoki]

i wish everything goes smoothly