Don't want to grow old...

[J22198]

Does any one here want to CTB?, because you don't want to grow old. What I mean is, you don't want to grow old because you might end up alone, I don't want to see my dad,siblings, partner die first. I already lost my mom 6 years ago and it still hurts me, still can't move on. Everything change since then... and I hate it.


been a silent reader here since January. Hesitant to post something because English is not my first language. Hope you understand what I mean.

 

[Kikoo Loool]

It's not my main reason but it's part of my reflection. I don't want to experoence the physical and intellectual collapse of myself.

 

[terry_a_davis]

I understand what you're getting at. How old is old though? My mum is 72 fit as a fiddle active social life has frequent holidays has a boyfriend. But I watched my uncle deteriorate in his early 70s, going from being independent to dependent in a nursing home, people dying around him till it was his turn. Doubt i'll live till i'm old but if i do i'll base off'ing myself on when my health starts seriously failing rather than my age.

 

[PrettyMoose]

That is one of my reasons for wanting to check out of life. Illnesses that inevitably come in old age are very scary to me, even more scary than suicide.

 

[Soulless_Angel]

I've never seen myself growing old, its strange, Old age doesn't scare me, society with people in the older age bracket does though

 

[Manicpixiedreamlast]

I feel the same. I enjoy the the innocence that comes with youngness. I often reflect on His Dark Materials and how the main protagonist mission is stop people from suffering because of Eves actions to eat the apple.

 

[highlyvolatile]

Its a part of the reason why, yes. Both sets of my grandparents are still alive but one set requires more care than the other and I dont want to rely on family to care for me if i got that age. The other set of grandparents is "ok" but very judgemental and i dont like being around them.

 

[Lutembëe]

I'm the same as you. I'm very afraid of getting older and having more and more responsibility. Plus I have a generalized anxiety disorder and it's making things worse. I don't want to see my parents die, and see myself getting worse and worse over the years. I'd rather leave sooner rather than later. Hopefully in a few months.

 

[Epsilon0]

There's beauty in old age.

There's beauty in grey hair, and deep wrinkles and the quiet, soft pace of a long life that has stopped being in a hurry.

 

[Clut]

I definitely don't want to grow so old that I can't function but it's not my reason for ctb as I could have quite a few years before I get there. But I understand what you're saying, the awful side effects of old age are too much to bear and I'd definitely like to die before I reach that stage

 

[MartyByrde]

Makes sense to me. Midlife sucks. I can't imagine how being elderly must feel.

 

[waterbottleman]

Yes.

If I was in my early twenties I'd probably stick around even in the current state I'm in.

I'm 29 and turning 30 this year though, I don't want to be alive and 30.

 

[Mizzmini45]

That is one of my reasons for wanting to check out of life. Illnesses that inevitably come in old age are very scary to me, even more scary than suicide.

I agree. I seen it to. Some people die "naturally " worse if they just ended it earlier

 

[s1mplem3]

I'm already alone and I don't want to end up in nursing home, I don't have anyone to take care when I get old.

 

[AcornUnderground]

I had no idea how hellish some physical illnesses could be until I got a bad one. Hell. On. Earth. I had no clue.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Does any one here want to CTB?, because you don't want to grow old. What I mean is, you don't want to grow old because you might end up alone, I don't want to see my dad,siblings, partner die first. I already lost my mom 6 years ago and it still hurts me, still can't move on. Everything change since then... and I hate it.


been a silent reader here since January. Hesitant to post something because English is not my first language. Hope you understand what I mean.

Sorry for your loss. I don't want to grow old either. Not the main reason (Because I'm poor and always will be with no way to change it)
I see old people out in public or the dr.s office struggleing to move … I don't want to be like that.

 

[Green Destiny]

I don't like the idea of getting old, weak, frail and possibly going senile and losing my mind. Rather die by my own hand when i'm still able to.

 

[Lastyp]

I feel the same way, for many years ,I always used to think of killing myself if I suffer from physical illness

 

[NeverGrowUp]

Seeing as I'm in the "prime of my life" and that I have been generally miserable for all of the time... it's only downhill from here. So yea I absolutely do not want to have to deal with my physical self breaking down over time as well. I have a very Peter Pan mentality, I remember not wanting to grow up so badly when I was only 14 or so. Only thing worse than extreme mental suffering is when you combine it with physical suffering. I also don't want to outlive family and have to witness them leave.