Venting Don't know what I am waiting for

[StillWaiting]

Tired of getting up everyday to do the things I hate just so that I go sleep and repeat the same thing.
When I think about how ridiculous it is to repeat it for the rest of my life, I want to leave.
Too tired to start searching on the method to ctb.

Does anyone else also feel trapped in between wanting to not exist but not having the energy to get going as if you are waiting for something to happen ?

 

[Thereisnothing]

Tired of getting up everyday to do the things I hate just so that I go sleep and repeat the same thing.
When I think about how ridiculous it is to repeat it for the rest of my life, I want to leave.
Too tired to start searching on the method to ctb.

Does anyone else also feel trapped in between wanting to not exist but not having the energy to get going as if you are waiting for something to happen ?

Yes I feel very trapped, cant bare existing yet cant go, dont even have a method sorted (not through want of trying though). I wonder even if do find something to suit, whether could go through with it anyway...............going round in circles.............perpetual carousel of words, feelings and pain cant even express.

 

[StillWaiting]

Yes I feel very trapped, cant bare existing yet cant go, dont even have a method sorted (not through want of trying though). I wonder even if do find something to suit, whether could go through with it anyway...............going round in circles.............perpetual carousel of words, feelings and pain cant even express.

Same here. Being trapped and feel helpless at the same time can really drive people insane

 

[Hopeindeath!]

I'm sorry you feel trapped. I feel trapped too. One member put it so perfectly saying they are trapped in a cage of flesh. I want to escape with a terminal illness so I don't have to hurt my family.

 

[StillWaiting]

I'm sorry you feel trapped. I feel trapped too. One member put it so perfectly saying they are trapped in a cage of flesh. I want to escape with a terminal illness so I don't have to hurt my family.

Can't imagine how much you will have to go through to escape with terminal illness though

 

[Hopeindeath!]

Can't imagine how much you will have to go through to escape with terminal illness though

I know what you mean. I hope I get one that's not painful. I wish I could know when my suffering will end.