I find it awful that some people seem to be afflicted with not caring if things get worse. Like- I do the bare minimum domestically and my personal hygiene is ok. Not because I like any of that shit. Or because I'm particularly house proud or care about my looks that much. It's more that I don't want to suffer things like toothache or infections. I care not to suffer more- definitely.
Surely people do link the two- if I don't brush my teeth or wash, I'm more prone to bad things happening. Maybe they don't think it will be that bad or, they just live in the moment maybe and they really don't want to do all that stuff.
Do you ever wonder if it's to do with upbringing too? Mine was pretty strict. I wasn't allowed to just leave a mess. I was at least allowed to make a mess but, I had to clear it up at the end. I have managed to rebel against that one! Not exactly a good thing but, I live alone so, it's not affecting anyone else. The personal hygienne stuff though has stuck. Which I am grateful for really. I don't like being in pain.
But yeah, I agree. After all- suicide isn't easy. Some of us have already been stuck here for years. We may be stuck here for years to come. It's so hard to keep living when you don't care about things. There's no motivation to do anything. Everything becomes a reluctant struggle.
