Does your depression make you hate people?

[niemand]

So I've noticed that when I'm really p*ssed about life and people, I turn into a very mean misanthropic person who throws his anger at everyone who crosses me. In my case suicidality comes along with loads of anger I have NO control over. It's nothing I decide willingly, it's like when I'm so done with life I just can't have any regards for mine and anyone elses feelings.

And so since depression is experienced very different from person to person, I would like to ask if there is anyone else dealing with an extreme and I mean EXTREME amount of anger and hatred against people (humans in general)?

Or is it just me?

And it's not that I can keep those feelings to myself, uncontrollably I have to express it through really mean comments or reckless behavior, towards people that provoke me as well as towards nice people, since I hate everyone just as much in that state..

side note, I'm diagnosed with bpd and turn into the exact opposite when I'm happy or in an enthusiastic mood. I just dont know which side defines my personality more.

 

[Soulless_Angel]

I hate people in general, but when I am in a foul mood, the world better run, I will argue with anyone and don't care, I hate them so much at that point, I don't care what I say. I don't know if its extreme as everyones idea of extreme will vary, but living with generally calm people, yea I can be pretty nasty!

 

[pete_x]

What people can become yes, but people by default, no.

 

[narval]

Idk if i'm depressed since i never went yo any specialist, but i can relate that, right now, i feel hughe rancor for humanity in general, high hate for some particulars, and some near people told me that seems i'm resentful.

 

[lostangel]

Yes, well sometimes. I feel I project some of my self-hatred onto other people.

 

[soda_pressed]

Yup. Having depression makes you see things "as they are".

 

[mathieu]

I just hate myself, really.

 

[The Dark Chaos]

It makes mehh hate myself..:(

 

[ArtsyDrawer]

I hate people who don't use their potential. Ableds who don't use their potential, specifically.
Right now to my left sits a man with an interest in programming. He complains every day that it's hard. Syntax, math, cold logic, it's all difficult to him, and so he drops his learning.
In some time, however, he will once more attempt to pass yet another course, ¾ of which he will spend on drinking with his newly acquired buddies, who will soon leave him.
This cycle will continue until his death. He is not willing to dedicate himself to the craft.
He has the brain power. Many times this this man has shown his experience in math and understanding of cold logic before, but he is not willing to truly dedicate himself to learning, he prefers drinking instead.
He knows I'm epileptic, he knows I am willing to kill a thousand men for a brain as healthy as his, he almost flaunts it, and yet he prefers to fuck around and complain instead of pulling out perhaps half a joul of energy and actually learn. He disgusts me.