Venting Does thinking about death bring you peace?

[DeletedUser]

Life is like the work, and death is the sleep you have once tired at the end of the 'day'.

 

[iloverachel]

Definitely
Life is unbearably painful and bad, but knowing it will all end one day brings me some peace of mind

 

[tbroken]

Yes, the only things i fear are long agony and big incapacitation.

 

[Meteora]

Yes, very much so. But I don't always think of death.

 

[pinkhellokitty]

whenever i'm going through a rough time, knowing i have the option to end it all is the only thing that soothes me

 

[davidtorez]

Knowing I have my bottles of N gives me some measure of peace , but not enough unfortunately. I need to muster up the courage to end it once and for all

 

[Olisop21.]

I'm not sure because I'm so stuck on the actual dying part.
Keep setting the time to do it but don't.
My personality disorders keep me from CTB, I'm working on trying squash my fear of non-existence and the actual fear of the dying process. I have a plan that I believe will work. If I could just get out of my head and be rational for the few seconds it takes to go unconscious.

Knowing I have my bottles of N gives me some measure of peace , but not enough unfortunately. I need to muster up the courage to end it once and for all

Exactly, it's courage to end it all. Wish it was easy to come by.

 

[davidtorez]

I'm not sure because I'm so stuck on the actual dying part.
Keep setting the time to do it but don't.
My personality disorders keep me from CTB, I'm working on trying squash my fear of non-existence and the actual fear of the dying process. I have a plan that I believe will work. If I could just get out of my head and be rational for the few seconds it takes to go unconscious.

Exactly, it's courage to end it all. Wish it was easy to come by.

Which is why it shits me to no end when I hear people say " they took the easy way out" when it comes to describe people who killed themselves
Or when they say a person is a coward etc, how the hell can someone be a coward when they just killed themselves. In alot of cultures it was considered an honour to kill oneself. Now people call it cowardly and easy , like wtf

 

[Olisop21.]

Which is why it shits me to no end when I hear people say " they took the easy way out" when it comes to describe people who killed themselves
Or when they say a person is a coward etc, how the hell can someone be a coward when they just killed themselves. In alot of cultures it was considered an honour to kill oneself. Now people call it cowardly and easy , like wtf

Totally agree, I just want it to be simple and be over with. I'm trying to prepare myself for non-existence by comparing it to being asleep or before I was born.

 

[lifewasawillow]

Yes, ironically the only thing getting me through life is the prospect of death if that makes any sense.

 

[DeletedUser]

Yes, ironically the only thing getting me through life is the prospect of death if that makes any sense.

Do you feel like death is the reward of life in a way?

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case I certainly see ceasing to exist as the only relief, I find the thought of eternal non-existence to be so beautiful, I only wish for this existence to permanently disappear into nothingness, I'd always see it as better to not exist no matter what. I only see beauty in ceasing to exist as it's the permanent end to all suffering and I don't want to suffer in any way, I only wish to be at peace free from the futile and torturous burden of existing as a human. I'd personally always believe the less time spent in this existence the better but of course only never existing is true perfection to me.

 

[thinvy]

there's a reason I like to call death "taking the big nap" when I talk to my friends about suicidality. i don't use it to censor or paint suicide in a better light, I see it more as a comforting option. like yeah, the bigger picture of death and dying is scary, but I try not to let that overwhelm me. I've had enough close brushes with death that tbh, I'm expecting it around every corner, but not in a horror movie way. I just am not shocked anymore.

the idea that all the suffering I've been through will end with me, and that I don't have to feel like this for another estimated 45-60 years is a huge comfort. a few gulps of salty water and laying down either in a nice warm tub or surrounded by my blankets and pillows is a small price to pay to not be in this much pain all the time.

 

[marchshift]

No. It hurts to think about.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Sometimes, yes, it does. Especially in situations when it's really hopeless. Anyway death is the one and only relieve from all suffering.

 

[BlendedHeart]

The thought of eternal slumber, to abandon all worries, to leave behind all the anger and pain and sadness I feel every day... of course it brings me peace.

 

[theboy]

is a mixture of many feelings

 

[TiredOfAllThis]

Mixed feelings. There are still a few things to love, but pain is becoming unbearable

 

[lifewasawillow]

Do you feel like death is the reward of life in a way?

It's more so I know I can leave whenever I want to and that I'm in control of when I get to do that.

 

[Immensevoid]

Life is like the work, and death is the sleep you have once tired at the end of the 'day'.

The fact the -an end- exists it's the only thing that comforts me in my hellish unsolvable situation..

 

[sserafim]

Yeah

 

[AbsurdAbyss]

Only in the hope of being dead.

 

[unabletocope]

Working towards death is tough

 

[xoirse]

absolutely. i see it as the only way to actually stop my problems, the only way to finally rest. every time i try to think of another method that helps me bring peace, it will eventually lead to me feeling the exact same. nothing works because it doesn't last long enough to keep me thinking straight. and that's why death brings me peace, it's there forever.

 

[darkenmydoorstep]

No, because it's like hankering after something I can't have.

I drive myself crazy thinking about it. It's incredibly frustrating knowing there are pharmacists, doctors and politicians who could help me fulfil my dream, bring me peace at benefit to not only myself but a wider world (someone could reuse healthy organs, lower carbon footprint etc) yet it is denied to us. It's just sick.

 

[strangelife]

Yes, I know, I think often that I can die and stop this unbearable life it makes me feel better. But thinking about death makes me sad from the other point because I think about my loved ones. So it is like tournament in my mind, from one point I want to die and get free from illness, from the other point I want to live with my loved ones more

 

[smpkie]

the thought of nothing happening afterwards scares me

 

[Painfu.Ll.suffering]

I mostly think about how i can achieve a peaceful death (not very successful). It doesn't bring me peace because i currently can have it safely. If i would have someone thats willing to come over and euthanize me, i would feel peace..

 

[rozeske]

The most at peace I became is the day I decided i'v had enough and would ctb.

 

[lotheb_5drop]

It is nice to know there is always an out.