Though it is no general law. There has to be a certain balance in my case. When I am extremely suicidal I usually have other things in my mind. I am still creative but usually I only talk about suicide then. However I also tried to give therapists a glimpse how it looks like in my concscioussness and many were shocked. They were really surprised how often a person can think about suicide. I could not stop talking about it or planning it. I felt huge pressure to act on it. But this is another story.
I wanted to say when I am suffering too much I barely can use the pain in a productive way. I am just too crippled and agitated in order to use the potential to sublimate one's feelings.
I am not fully sure whether sublimation fits what I am refering to. I don't mean Freud's defintion. I just want to say that a crisis or pain can sometimes be steered into a useful direction. One can sublimate one's own suffering to create something. I think a lot of art was created by that. I am bipolar and some say bipolar people are more creative. I did not really think I was creative before the people in this forum gave me this feedback. In my usual daily life I am not that creative.
Currently I suffer less because I have more freetime. The anxiety and stress levels are lower. I feel less pressure. And exactly that pressure can be used in a productive way. It is a horrendous life quality but ruminating about my pain is a good source for ideas. I feel so many different feelings and emotions. Usually I work pretty hard but when I take short breaks there come new ideas for threads. Life is so incredibly complex and there are so many things to consider. There is like a need in my soul for silence. For moments of reflections. And moments in which turn introspectively and analyze my feelings. I use that as a strategy to keep my sanity up. Usually when I am extremely unhappy and at the same time under huge pressure I can turn either manic or psychotic. So I try to track my mood to prevent a relapse. For example increasing the medication can help when it is only a temporary state.
Do you ever felt like you could use your own suffering to create something?
I wanted to say when I am suffering too much I barely can use the pain in a productive way. I am just too crippled and agitated in order to use the potential to sublimate one's feelings.
I am not fully sure whether sublimation fits what I am refering to. I don't mean Freud's defintion. I just want to say that a crisis or pain can sometimes be steered into a useful direction. One can sublimate one's own suffering to create something. I think a lot of art was created by that. I am bipolar and some say bipolar people are more creative. I did not really think I was creative before the people in this forum gave me this feedback. In my usual daily life I am not that creative.
Currently I suffer less because I have more freetime. The anxiety and stress levels are lower. I feel less pressure. And exactly that pressure can be used in a productive way. It is a horrendous life quality but ruminating about my pain is a good source for ideas. I feel so many different feelings and emotions. Usually I work pretty hard but when I take short breaks there come new ideas for threads. Life is so incredibly complex and there are so many things to consider. There is like a need in my soul for silence. For moments of reflections. And moments in which turn introspectively and analyze my feelings. I use that as a strategy to keep my sanity up. Usually when I am extremely unhappy and at the same time under huge pressure I can turn either manic or psychotic. So I try to track my mood to prevent a relapse. For example increasing the medication can help when it is only a temporary state.
Do you ever felt like you could use your own suffering to create something?
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