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Let me go...please
- Jul 27, 2021
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I am 5'10 and 240 pounds. I attempted partial hanging a year ago (February 2021) and got unconscious. I was 5'10 and 180 lbs then. But I was found and taken to the hospital and rescued.
Right now, I'm scared of whether it would be suitable for my weight. I consider myself pretty heavy. I'm ready to lose weight if it's necessary. I know that partial hanging is the most painless method because I've actually tried it. I remember giving up control of my body and standing on my toes then boom...I was at the hospital, surrounded by 10 docs and nurses.
I considered CTB via SN but it seems more complex. Plus the success rate isn't much. I can't lay my hands on good quality SN, powerful anti-emetics, beta-blockers, and stuff. What's the guarantee that I won't throw up? I suffer from gastrointestinal issues. So it's nearly impossible I could poison myself. S**t, even death isn't accepting me. When I told my therapist that, he laughed.
I can't do either of the methods soon enough. My parents robbed my room and now I'm living in the guest room. So I'll be able to do it only when I get my room back.
So I want some suggestions on whether this would be a good option considering my weight. Help/ criticism is welcome.
Thanks in advance :)
Right now, I'm scared of whether it would be suitable for my weight. I consider myself pretty heavy. I'm ready to lose weight if it's necessary. I know that partial hanging is the most painless method because I've actually tried it. I remember giving up control of my body and standing on my toes then boom...I was at the hospital, surrounded by 10 docs and nurses.
I considered CTB via SN but it seems more complex. Plus the success rate isn't much. I can't lay my hands on good quality SN, powerful anti-emetics, beta-blockers, and stuff. What's the guarantee that I won't throw up? I suffer from gastrointestinal issues. So it's nearly impossible I could poison myself. S**t, even death isn't accepting me. When I told my therapist that, he laughed.
I can't do either of the methods soon enough. My parents robbed my room and now I'm living in the guest room. So I'll be able to do it only when I get my room back.
So I want some suggestions on whether this would be a good option considering my weight. Help/ criticism is welcome.
Thanks in advance :)