Does meditation prep one for ctb or push them away from it?

[Ambivalent1]

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[ijustwishtodie]

It doesn't do either for me. For me, it just doesn't work in general and I don't feel anything from meditation

 

[EyesOfNight]

Could go either way. I guess you will find out if your mind wants to ctb or not if you meditate without directions.
If you use guided meditation you could select the outcome.

 

[divinemistress87]

It might help if you are in a neutral state of mind. If you are really emotional it could make it worse

 

[R_N]

If by meditation you mean observing your own body in silence then I am not sure myself. It calms me but I never went too far. I am actually scared of point of no return if I went deeper into it. I am already aware of what I am but I can still enjoy material things and connect to others. If I give up these habits and make them meaningless I might spend the rest of my life like a vegetable. Nothingness.

I assume it would make me less suicidal but also I would have zero drive for almost everything. And that thought scares me, it actually feels like death in a way.

 

[Hollowman]

If by meditation you mean observing your own body in silence then I am not sure myself. It calms me but I never went too far. I am actually scared of point of no return if I went deeper into it. I am already aware of what I am but I can still enjoy material things and connect to others. If I give up these habits and make them meaningless I might spend the rest of my life like a vegetable. Nothingness.

I assume it would make me less suicidal but also I would have zero drive for almost everything. And that thought scares me, it actually feels like death in a way.

You should be scared, you basically described the state I'm in. It is like death.