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kufajoy

kufajoy

Misfit
Nov 6, 2025
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I did something crazy today. I recorded myself injecting propofol. I only used 20ml propofol on a diy infusion pump and it knocked me out for 8 whole minutes.

In the video when I was about to get conscious again, I was screaming in pain. Because I didn't used any local anesthesia before injecting propofol. And propofol burns as hell for some minutes. I was crying and saying Napa extra, napa extra. (Paracetamol)Which is my comfort medicine 😅

After waking up I don't remember any of the pain I felt. I really don't know what to say about this. Does it really count as suffering if you don't remember?
 
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aRose

aRose

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Jan 18, 2026
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Must be like going under for surgery - you can be literally gutted like a fish but not really know it.
 
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Arvayn

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Nov 11, 2025
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I'd say that it depends on the type of pain. Personally, I say that it still is a form of suffering, though a much subtler and less intense kind; even if you don't consciously experience any pain, our subconscious can remember and have it affect us in ways we don't even notice, for better or worse. This is especially true for mental pain, though it can happen for physical pain as well.
 
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kufajoy

kufajoy

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Nov 6, 2025
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I'd say that it depends on the type of pain. Personally, I say that it still is a form of suffering, though a much subtler and less intense kind; even if you don't consciously experience any pain, our subconscious can remember and have it affect us in ways we don't even notice, for better or worse. This is especially true for mental pain, though it can happen for physical pain as well.
Kindda confusing thing right ? I mean if I die when bring unconscious vs with conscious does it really makes that difference. Either way you are suffering with pain just you don't remember. And if I am dead I won't be able to remember anything.
 
joegoes100

joegoes100

All Over The Place
Jan 18, 2026
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I did something crazy today. I recorded myself injecting propofol. I only used 20ml propofol on a diy infusion pump and it knocked me out for 8 whole minutes.

In the video when I was about to get conscious again, I was screaming in pain. Because I didn't used any local anesthesia before injecting propofol. And propofol burns as hell for some minutes. I was crying and saying Napa extra, napa extra. (Paracetamol)Which is my comfort medicine 😅

After waking up I don't remember any of the pain I felt. I really don't know what to say about this. Does it really count as suffering if you don't remember?
100% counts. Like if you hit your head really hard and don't remember getting hit, you still got hit.
 
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kufajoy

kufajoy

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Nov 6, 2025
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100% counts. Like if you hit your head really hard and don't remember getting hit, you still got hit.
Yeah. only difference it makes is you don't remember 😅
Ig I will just have to be a little brave to drink sn. And dead = you don't remember.
 
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joegoes100

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Jan 18, 2026
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Yeah. only difference it makes is you don't remember 😅
Ig I will just have to be a little brave to drink sn. And dead = you don't remember.
You will be remembered though, even if it's not by yourself. ❤️
 
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