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Sad_Autistic_boy_101
When I die, you'll love me.
- Nov 19, 2019
- 451
Does hope exist or is it an illusion?
I feel people try to force false hope onto us, whether that's trying to convince us good things can happen or telling us to try and focus on the positives. I think they do this to make themselves feel better if we are still alive.
I just think it's a cruel mind game that people keep playing with me. I always end up beleiveing them and then every time I get crushed when nothing improves or things get better.
For some reason I keep giving life a chance and it still ends up the same dissapointment. I'm tired of living groundhog day every day, I just feel so trapped with no way out. My country has made it hard to access anything that can be used to CTB, especially for disabled people.![Ehh :ehh: :ehh:](data:image/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAIAAAAAAAP///yH5BAEAAAAALAAAAAABAAEAAAIBRAA7)
I feel people try to force false hope onto us, whether that's trying to convince us good things can happen or telling us to try and focus on the positives. I think they do this to make themselves feel better if we are still alive.
I just think it's a cruel mind game that people keep playing with me. I always end up beleiveing them and then every time I get crushed when nothing improves or things get better.
For some reason I keep giving life a chance and it still ends up the same dissapointment. I'm tired of living groundhog day every day, I just feel so trapped with no way out. My country has made it hard to access anything that can be used to CTB, especially for disabled people.