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Unending
Enlightened
- Nov 5, 2022
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I've been thinking lately about if I would have been born regardless of if my parents had me or not. I imagine that science can only comment so much on this considering what a big question it is but think that there must be some sort of hints or discussion surrounding this topic at the very least. I hope that the outcome will be for this to end once and for all when my day comes but am scared of the possibility that it could start over again. I'm not invested in any spiritual beliefs and never put much faith in reincarnation or anything like that but what if there could be a scientific reason for something like this to happen? This would be extremely bad news as far as I am concerned because I obviously just never want to go through this again and already find it a sick enough joke on behalf of existence without any additional tricks being played on me.
Does anyone have any opinions on the matter or suggestions of scientific resources that could hopefully ease my mind? I mean if this really is my only life, that is comforting because it isn't going to be so long in the grand scheme whether I ctb tomorrow or in the next decade but what are the odds of there being some uninvited continuation or recycling of consciousness? Again, I welcome any insight that can prove this to be unlikely. I typically would see this type of thought as silly or at least irrational but it keeps bugging me as of recently. On the other side of the coin, I still find my longing to leave being poisoned by fears of hell despite wholeheartedly understanding that there is no logical reason to think this could be the outcome... Ugh, how I hate the fears that others have planted in my head.
It's such an absolutely awful thing to feel like the body that you spawned in was created to be escaped, only to be obstructed by these barriers... What a life this is.
Does anyone have any opinions on the matter or suggestions of scientific resources that could hopefully ease my mind? I mean if this really is my only life, that is comforting because it isn't going to be so long in the grand scheme whether I ctb tomorrow or in the next decade but what are the odds of there being some uninvited continuation or recycling of consciousness? Again, I welcome any insight that can prove this to be unlikely. I typically would see this type of thought as silly or at least irrational but it keeps bugging me as of recently. On the other side of the coin, I still find my longing to leave being poisoned by fears of hell despite wholeheartedly understanding that there is no logical reason to think this could be the outcome... Ugh, how I hate the fears that others have planted in my head.
It's such an absolutely awful thing to feel like the body that you spawned in was created to be escaped, only to be obstructed by these barriers... What a life this is.