Fatality
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- Apr 17, 2019
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I can not commit suicide because I have no will power but I am wanting to and I cannot go on, I need something that's easy, accessible, painless and affordable.. with little effort needed.
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not_a_robot
"i hope the leaving is joyful, & never to return"
- May 30, 2019
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Supposedly people are dropping like flies with the opioid epidemic, and the media makes it look so easy you could do it by accident, but I guess it depends on access. I'm too socially awkward to maintain contacts for buying drugs, I hate it. So even though it looks like a nice way to go, it's not a realistic option for me.
Meretlein
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- Feb 15, 2019
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The best method is to order N from A if it is possible for you.
I also have no willpower. This is the result of my mental illness. It is hard for me to make decisions: today it seems to me that it is necessary to wait for the opportunity to order N, tomorrow it seems that it is necessary to take SN, the day after tomorrow I think that SN is painful and not reliable enough, and so in a circle. It's disgusting, my life is like a dull movie.
I also have no willpower. This is the result of my mental illness. It is hard for me to make decisions: today it seems to me that it is necessary to wait for the opportunity to order N, tomorrow it seems that it is necessary to take SN, the day after tomorrow I think that SN is painful and not reliable enough, and so in a circle. It's disgusting, my life is like a dull movie.
not_a_robot
"i hope the leaving is joyful, & never to return"
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Soul
gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha
- Apr 12, 2019
- 4,705
It is. Don't be confused - that's my specialty.
Fatality
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- Apr 17, 2019
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pane
Hollow
- Apr 29, 2019
- 358
N is Nembutal. Alan James is describing his jumbled thinking on account of his mental illness whereby one day he thinks he should take Nembutal, the next day it should be sodium nitrite, the day after he thinks SN won't work well enough and doesn't know what to do next.
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Fatality
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- Apr 17, 2019
- 69
I don't think it'd be reliable for me either since I know no drug dealers
not_a_robot
"i hope the leaving is joyful, & never to return"
- May 30, 2019
- 2,121
then where are we supposed to order it from? I thought that was impossible.
Soul
gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha
- Apr 12, 2019
- 4,705
From A. Check out the Peaceful Pill Handbook for contact information.
aquila
"I'm not here. This isn't happening"
- Jun 10, 2019
- 7
I can relate to this a lot. I have this problem where if anything bad happens in my life I just sit there doing nothing about it. In any kind of situation I pretty much never initiate things, in the end that makes me very anti-social. Most of the suicide methods require a lot of additional equipment, drugs that are hard to access, and it's really unappealing to me. Anyone heard of 'Aboulia'?
I too wish that there is an easy way out... my country has a strict rule about importing drugs.
Fatality
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- Apr 17, 2019
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aquila
"I'm not here. This isn't happening"
- Jun 10, 2019
- 7
I am not really good at explaining things, so I'd just recommend google. I think it describes what we might be going through really well
Roger
I Liked Ike
- May 11, 2019
- 973
Abulia - Wikipedia
Aboulia or abulia, in neurology, refers to a lack of will or initiative and can be seen as a disorder of diminished motivation (DDM).
Aboulia falls in the middle of the spectrum of diminished motivation, with apathy being less extreme and akinetic mutism being more extreme than aboulia. The condition was originally considered to be a disorder of the will, and aboulic individuals are unable to act or make decisions independently; and their condition may range in severity from subtle to overwhelming. It is also known as Blocq's disease (which also refers to abasia and astasia-abasia).
Fatality
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- Apr 17, 2019
- 69
I feel like I could relate with that..Abulia - Wikipedia
en.wikipedia.org
Aboulia or abulia, in neurology, refers to a lack of will or initiative and can be seen as a disorder of diminished motivation (DDM).
Aboulia falls in the middle of the spectrum of diminished motivation, with apathy being less extreme and akinetic mutism being more extreme than aboulia. The condition was originally considered to be a disorder of the will, and aboulic individuals are unable to act or make decisions independently; and their condition may range in severity from subtle to overwhelming. It is also known as Blocq's disease (which also refers to abasia and astasia-abasia).
Sad that people are dying of accidental fentanyl overdoses when I'd be sooo grateful to have some. It seems like a super peaceful way to go.
bigj75
“From Knowledge springs power."
- Sep 1, 2018
- 2,540
SN for me. I also have little will power. Also poor concentration & little money to spend.
This is the one for me.
This is the one for me.
Go to psychotherapy, it will give you willpower to ctb, just dont say that you are making suicidal plans
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