Does anyone here so pent up that minor inconvenience make you suicidal?

[Rox]

I ordered SN last week and everything from then on just trying to piss me off even more. I have bottled up so much emotion that I feel like Im gonna burst.

 

[LastFlowers]

All the minor things are simply the straws that break the camel's back.

 

[not_a_robot]

Yes. For twenty years I felt like I was one tiny mishap away from ctb. People thought I was just being melodramatic but I literally lived my life feeling like I was always just minutes from doing it, kept knives handy at all times.
I'm more stable now but dealing with people always puts me right back in that place; they are all just so dumb and conniving and childishly manipulative. I just want to ctb to get away from them, to never have to look at or speak to another person again.

 

[Jon86]

I'm suicidal basically all day long and have been for around 10 years. There are a few brief moments where I forget but never for long, literally every hour i'm awake I have suicidal thoughts.

 

[Halo13]

Yes, been on the verge of ctb constantly for almost two decades. Small things can easily set me off but I try to keep it in check because I can't handle another failed ctb without proper planning.