FewerMoats
Member
- Sep 1, 2020
- 43
I have three children, ages 9, 11, and 15. My youngest is very attached to me. I'm also a full time caregiver for my husband.
I have wanted to die for so long. My whole life has sucked and it just keeps getting worse and worse. I want to get the things I need for SN just to have it on hand for the next time I feel like I could do it. If I had it I would have been gone a week ago.
But I don't know where my kids would go and it would devastate my husband. But I'm tired. Tired of living for others, because in no way am I still here for myself.
I have wanted to die for so long. My whole life has sucked and it just keeps getting worse and worse. I want to get the things I need for SN just to have it on hand for the next time I feel like I could do it. If I had it I would have been gone a week ago.
But I don't know where my kids would go and it would devastate my husband. But I'm tired. Tired of living for others, because in no way am I still here for myself.