Does anyone here get suicidal on their period?

[Sewing]

I think I have PMMD or something because in the days leading up to my period, without fail, I become an emotionally unstable wreck. In the moment it all feels completely real, but then I see the blood and feel like a total idiot. It all comes from real feelings, and the period just seems to remove some veil of control that I have normally.
I hate my biology, I feel like I can't trust myself. When I start feeling normal again I feel worse in a different way because I remember I'm just some dumb animal in pain.

 

[monetpompo]

no text messages and crying

i want to cut everybody off. everybody. i hung out with my college friends on halloween but i want to cut them off, i want to cut off my friend who moved away, i want to cut off my whole family so that it doesn't matter whether i get 0 messages or not, everyone will be gone and i won't have to...

sanctioned-suicide.net

me lol. i also feel incredibly nauseous on my period.

I become an emotionally unstable wreck. In the moment it all feels completely real, but then I see the blood and feel like a total idiot. It all comes from real feelings, and the period just seems to remove some veil of control that I have normally. I hate my biology, I feel like I can't trust myself.

it's embarrassing and makes me wish i was dead even more. i just think about suicide nonstop, feel incredibly insecure, and feel like nothing in my life matters at all. i always start crying uncontrollably, too. then my period ends and the mood swings are suddenly gone. i'm sorry that you relate to this. i haven't found a way to cope with it, because knowing that "i'm on my period" doesn't help. it feels like guys will just use that to explain why i'm moody on a certain day. it's not fair that it happens every month and i have no control over it each time.

 

[traingirl]

I think I have PMMD or something because in the days leading up to my period, without fail, I become an emotionally unstable wreck. In the moment it all feels completely real, but then I see the blood and feel like a total idiot. It all comes from real feelings, and the period just seems to remove some veil of control that I have normally.
I hate my biology, I feel like I can't trust myself. When I start feeling normal again I feel worse in a different way because I remember I'm just some dumb animal in pain.

Yes. I have PMDD. It's horrible. Get some relief after period for two weeks. Get super suicidal again. Rinse. Repeat.

 

[grapefruit04]

Sometimes. The pain, hormonal changes and reminder of existing to reproduce for no real reason takes a toll

 

[NormallyNeurotic]

Yup. And it can sometimes be a week lead-up to my period where I'm just falling apart. It also worsens my EDS, autoimmune disorders, and chronic pain/fatigue. Because... why not?

 

[crayonscrayons]

you said it exactly how it is for me.
also I become a selfish, insecure, terrified, mean person. 2 times classmates were just trying to have normal conversations with me, but I suddenly insult something they enjoy, or I perceive something they said as an attack. and I've been cruel to my friend. and I get mad at my family more easily. I even get mad at my cats for wanting to be close to me. last time my period lasted 2 weeks, and I'm going to get it again now even though I'm not this regular. I wish I had the ability to keep it together and not hurt everyone around me.

 

[lita-lassi]

ive had an iud for 8 years now and its on its last legs. i had 6 completely period free years then the last couple ill have extremely sparse spotting or dead blood for maybe one day a month if that, but last week i actually bled for real for the first time in years and it freaked me out a bit just because i wasnt expecting it. then i realized i had felt extra crappy in the days leading up to it out of nowhere for seemingly no reason. not suicidal levels thankfully but extra drinking, weed, bed rotting, extra malaise, extra irritability, appetite wouldnt stfu etc

time to fork over a lot of money for a new one, im too used to no mood swings for this garbage again

 

[Tired_of_myself]

i totally relate to this, i already have a little gender dysmorphia so the hormones hits so hard… do you have any tips to help get through? lol

 

[Sewing]

i totally relate to this, i already have a little gender dysmorphia so the hormones hits so hard… do you have any tips to help get through? lol

gender dysphoria? Big relate. I don't know if I would call myself trans or not but I definitely get that as well, I just repress it. Unfortunately I have no tips other than seeing it coming, which I usually fail to do because I forget my period.

 

[Marbas]

Oh definitely. It makes everything worse. Plus mine made me anemic. Which is also likely playing into a worsening of depression and suicidal thoughts for me. Yes my OBGYN knows and yes she just shrugged it off. She said periods are unpleasant for everyone and that was that. I get to play the fun game of trying to raise iron while losing lots of it. Love to find another OBGYN if this wasn't the only one around here sadly.