I only started to feel more positive once mental health services stopped trying to get me to take medications. They had spent a couple of years trying to convince me I had psych issues and needed medication, but I constantly resisted.
What I had (and have) are chronic physical issues that are marginalised, leading to anxiety and depression.
Now that they haven't been trying to gas light me, I've started to try and come to terms with my illness, develop practical coping strategies and try to listen to my physical and mental needs.
I try to push myself but also be realistic about what I can achieve. You can't do that when you are drugged or when someone else is telling you what you should think and feel about something they don't understand.
It doesn't always work and I'm quite limited as to what I can do, but I'm pushing myself as far as I can go without a diagnosis and treatment.