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LivideLamb
I'm so decaying, feeling like an ashtray
- Jan 5, 2020
- 351
I fucking hate celebrating my birthday
It always has been. Even as a little girl. I used to hate it. The attention, the presents, the family coming together to threw you a nice birthday party to "celebrate" another year in this miserable life
The older I get, the more hate and disgust I have towards this so called celebration. I absolutely despise it
Personally, I don't want to celebrate it, I just want to sleep all day long, forget about it, act as if nothing happens. Yet, I know, like every other year, family are gonna call, everyone is gonna be joyful over the phone, while I'm on the other side of the phone feeling like I'm gonna throw up. What is there to celebrate ? Depression, anxiety, illnesses, a fucked up life ?
I know how I'm gonna pass my birthday this year. Coping in the worst way possible, since I can't CTB yet. I'm gonna get wasted, take a little bit too much meds, and, be real high from it for once
Sorry for the venting. Hopefully I'm not the only one feeling that way
It always has been. Even as a little girl. I used to hate it. The attention, the presents, the family coming together to threw you a nice birthday party to "celebrate" another year in this miserable life
The older I get, the more hate and disgust I have towards this so called celebration. I absolutely despise it
Personally, I don't want to celebrate it, I just want to sleep all day long, forget about it, act as if nothing happens. Yet, I know, like every other year, family are gonna call, everyone is gonna be joyful over the phone, while I'm on the other side of the phone feeling like I'm gonna throw up. What is there to celebrate ? Depression, anxiety, illnesses, a fucked up life ?
I know how I'm gonna pass my birthday this year. Coping in the worst way possible, since I can't CTB yet. I'm gonna get wasted, take a little bit too much meds, and, be real high from it for once
Sorry for the venting. Hopefully I'm not the only one feeling that way