Discussion Does anyone feels like they have no "valid motives"?

[bloomingdark]

I don't really now how did i ended up in this point in my life

I can't expect nothing, i want to sleep all day, i can't put up with being alive or concious, i don't have any passion anymore
I don't feel like i am productive anymore
And i am about to graduate on high school
I ask myself if i can give me an oportunity to live,and enjoy but since i don't believe in anything i can't find beauty on things as i did in the past

And i wonder why i feel so down and i don't even have suffered that much on my life,anyone seeing me from outside could say i have a cutet family,pretty friends,nice house

But i don't see myself living,i can't with the tougth of me studying something i don't want to, pretending as always i am completly fine

I am falling apart quickly but i don't feel enough energy to stop it

I want a peaceful death
I don't know if leaving a note or whatever

 

[Alan James]

I have thought since childhood that life was deliberately overvalued. Simply unwillingness to live for any reason (not necessarily suffering from any illness, depression or poverty) is enough to have to end your life if you want. If a person simply does not want to live, then it is normal and he can do with his body what he wants if it does not harm other people.

 

[GeorgeJL]

I don't really now how did i ended up in this point in my life

I can't expect nothing, i want to sleep all day, i can't put up with being alive or concious, i don't have any passion anymore
I don't feel like i am productive anymore
And i am about to graduate on high school
I ask myself if i can give me an oportunity to live,and enjoy but since i don't believe in anything i can't find beauty on things as i did in the past

And i wonder why i feel so down and i don't even have suffered that much on my life,anyone seeing me from outside could say i have a cutet family,pretty friends,nice house

But i don't see myself living,i can't with the tougth of me studying something i don't want to, pretending as always i am completly fine

I am falling apart quickly but i don't feel enough energy to stop it

I want a peaceful death
I don't know if leaving a note or whatever

Personally for me yes I have completely valid motives mostly because I won't be ending my life until I am an old man. This is the way I see it if you give this life an honest try. If you try medication, psychedelics, psychotherapy, self development, etc. And none of that helps then the choice is yours, but until then you should give life and the help we offer a good shot.

 

[JadedGray]

I feel like I have valid reasons, but it's also for existential reasons and not just because of personal misfortune.

 

[Kyrok]

Your reason is you don't see the point of putting in effort if you don't find anything worth putting in that effort for.
If work isn't intrinsically fulfilling, life sucks.

 

[TheLastStraw]

Sometimes my life is horrible per say, but I think life is too hard, too much of a chore, not worth the effort would be my reason.

And life really does absolutely suck so I think it's valid enough

 

[spanishguy22]

Have you had any trauma happen to you as a child?
Does your family have a depression history?

 

[Broken]

Personally for me yes I have completely valid motives mostly because I won't be ending my life until I am an old man. This is the way I see it if you give this life an honest try. If you try medication, psychedelics, psychotherapy, self development, etc. And none of that helps then the choice is yours, but until then you should give life and the help we offer a good shot.

I've been asking for help but the mental health/drug addiction services in the UK are shite

 

[GeorgeJL]

I've been asking for help but the mental health/drug addiction services in the UK are shite

Try ketamine. It's worth a shot trust me.

 

[dyingtodie]

I feel like I could suffer through the pain of chronic intense depressions and hypersensitivity to sounds and energy, but I really don't want to. Cars driving by, planes overhead, lawnmowers in the distance, literally hurt and stress my body. It feels like I'm in some torture chamber. I kinda wanna see how much I can tolerate.

It's really hard to leave my cat, my one friend behind.

Humans have disappointed me so much that I don't even think about attempting to start friendships. The kind of deep relationship I long for I don't believe is to be found here.

I've reached out for help. I got great help at 15. Psychiatry, therapy, drugs etc, but now at 31 I'm still feeling as depressed, and with the life experience to back it up! I'm glad I've lived this far, but don't see the point in continuing.

There's something just so god damned sad about suicide for me though. It's almost like too sad to do. But I can't shake the seeming fact that it is something that I must do, and soon. It's the ultimate priority on my to-do list that I procrastinate on every day. One day. I feel like the sadness of the act that faces me is drowning me in sorrow...and enduring it at one point might be more painful and scary than the act of going through with it. Ah. I just love myself so much is the problem. If I didn't care so much about life, and weren't so sensitive, I wouldn't be in this predicament. How do you kill your best and only friend? I'm so tired. Sorry for writing. God bless.

 

[Titania]

There's no such thing as a "valid" reason to CTB. Sometimes you feel it for no reason and just get into the motion. Sometimes we are more thoughtful about it. It can become an addictive habit of themselves just like self-harm does because it brings out a rush of feeling alive. (oxymoron lol) Regardless, taking your life in your hands is a huge responsibility to carry. Taking that next step is entirely up to you if you are motivated enough to plan it out throughly and be successful. Your body will always fight back when we try to die. We're conditioned to keep on living.

 

[Broken]

Try ketamine. It's worth a shot trust me.

Think I'll give the K a miss thanks. I'm in this mess from smoking cannabis for the last 15 years!

 

[spanishguy22]

Sadly I have more than enough motives. That's why I know I won't be cured ever.

 

[Marz]

Sometimes I feel like that, too, but then I sit down and reconsider me, my life, and existence. And it's more than enough reasons to die; since there aren't good enough reasons to combat them and stay.
I don't want to wake up at 30 or older and realize I am living a life I don't want to live.

 

[EddieAllenPoe]

It seems like our questions always first start out as expressing pure emotion. They're one and the same thing.
You live long enough though and you'll start to see funny questions bubbling up in your mind. Things like...

What could actually make a suicide valid?

It seems like it's a variant of other funny thoughts.

Holy shit. I'm alive. Why the fuck am I alive?

You'd think there'd be some kind of answer existing somewhere. Am I supposed to believe the answer to these questions is just a feeling?

 

[GeorgeJL]

Think I'll give the K a miss thanks. I'm in this mess from smoking cannabis for the last 15 years!

Yeah I knew cannabis wasn't as safe as people say.

 

[BandAddict]

I feel like wanting to ctb between the age of about 7 until recently was sensible in my situation. All environments of my upbringing gave me every reason to put an end to it, because I felt as though the suffering did grant me some sense "validity." However, now I'm in a situation where I'm the safest and most secure I've ever been. I'm lost between wondering if I still have the right to feel "valid" or if I'm expected to get my head out of my ass like nothing ever happened.

 

[Divine Trinity]

Your reason is you don't see the point of putting in effort if you don't find anything worth putting in that effort for.
If work isn't intrinsically fulfilling, life sucks.

That's one of the main issues hardly ever addressed. A good half to 3/4ths of the US workforce's jobs are useless or detrimental to society.

Yeah I knew cannabis wasn't as safe as people say.

It's "safer" than a lot of alternatives. Doesn't mean it promotes health or have no effect.

 

[Roberto]

I can't cope with life. I'm not what the world wants. I don't accept the world rules.

 

[dyingtodie]

Cannabis is my best ally in dealing with depression/anxiety and especially thoughts to self harm or ctb. Many, many times I've been on the verge of self harming or feeling like there is no way I will be able to stop myself from exiting tonight and then I smoke, and I'm like, wtf was I so worried about? Sleep, wake, repeat :)!

On the flip side, the marvelous medicine has made me vastly more sensitive and aware to the ills of this sick society so it's somewhat of a vicious cycle.