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Need2Leave
Member
- May 9, 2024
- 26
I feel like I've reached a point beyond repair, where the amount of suffering exceeds the will to live. The pain from all the years of mishaps and illnesses have become so unbearable that even recovery is an end of journey that I'm unable to reach.
I've been told one too many times that "Time Heals all Wounds", and that all the dots will someday connect together. And yes that can be true, but for me all the wait has led to more pain, suffering and loneliness. And upon reflection, I wish that I had not been consumed by the platitudes of life. That everything happens for a reason or that everything works out together for good. I wish that I had ended my misery long ago instead of clinging on the idea that everything will be alright.
My heart is broken, the illnesses have remained, the narcissists in my life have won, and all the aspirations had I hoped for are lost. Even when I knew the odds were stacked against me, I kept hoping, clinging and ultimately left in more pain.
I have no more hope left in me to hold on to this time.
I've been told one too many times that "Time Heals all Wounds", and that all the dots will someday connect together. And yes that can be true, but for me all the wait has led to more pain, suffering and loneliness. And upon reflection, I wish that I had not been consumed by the platitudes of life. That everything happens for a reason or that everything works out together for good. I wish that I had ended my misery long ago instead of clinging on the idea that everything will be alright.
My heart is broken, the illnesses have remained, the narcissists in my life have won, and all the aspirations had I hoped for are lost. Even when I knew the odds were stacked against me, I kept hoping, clinging and ultimately left in more pain.
I have no more hope left in me to hold on to this time.