Discussion Does Anyone Else Want to Die because They Have No Friends?

[Deadgirl]

Part of the reason why I want to ctb is because as far as i remember i have been a complete loner. Does anyone else feel this way?

 

[Alchemist]

Pretty much the same. Those so called friends never contact me unless something is needed and nowhere to be found when I need them. I can literally say I want to end my life and only get a couple of "don't be sad" messages.

I've been miserably alone for like a day or so and whenever I gather enough energy to contact someone I just get ghosted or ignored.

 

[Deadgirl]

Pretty much the same. Those so called friends never contact me unless something is needed and nowhere to be found when I need them. I can literally say I want to end my life and only get a couple of "don't be sad" messages.

I've been miserably alone for like a day or so and whenever I gather enough energy to contact someone I just get ghosted or ignored.

I get how you feel i had some so called friends like that. One of them said i was her "best friend" but she never talked to me after a year.

 

[Alchemist]

I get how you feel i had some so called friends like that. One of them said i was her "best friend" but she never talked to me after a year.

I had one that literally she told me that when I confessed my feelings for her, then she forgot about my birthday that was less than a week later and completely ghosted me soon after that. Last contact I had with her was when I saw she phoned me and when I contacted her she only told me she buttdialed, nothing else.

 

[Deadgirl]

I had one that literally she told me that when I confessed my feelings for her, then she forgot about my birthday that was less than a week later and completely ghosted me soon after that. Last contact I had with her was when I saw she phoned me and when I contacted her she only told me she buttdialed, nothing else.

I absolutely hate people like that. In February my lab partner posted a selfie with me on my social media (just a girl thing no sign of friendship.) She got jealous and contacted me and said we'll hang out and etc. That never happened.

 

[Alchemist]

I absolutely hate people like that. In February my lab partner posted a selfie with me on my social media (just a girl thing no sign of friendship.) She got jealous and contacted me and said we'll hang out and etc. That never happened.

She seems to want just someone to treat like a pet. I know the kind, though no one has ever been jealous about me.

A few weeks ago I posted how I lost all will to live and some guy said he would come to my house to hang out. Guess how many times he has come?

Honestly, I think I can only get company when I pay for it. People accept to hang out with me when I offer to pay for movie tickets or the sorts. Sometimes I think I should just accept it and just hire a prostitute, at least she would be honest about being around for the money.

 

[Escaper Boy]

Ironically, I have no friend because I was the one who pushed people away. I deleted all of my social media pages. I cut contact with people I knew. I stopped responding the text message from my best friend years ago. Even family, sometimes I chose not to pick up my phone when they called. I hope everyone just forget my existence.

Probably, I just want to decrease as much pain as possible for other people when I ctb later.

 

[TAW122]

While I have grown accustomed to my solitary life, there are still times where I have a desire to have some human connection and interaction. I don't have many friends IRL either, just a few people who are close acquaintances and don't always contact me everyday either. Being lonely is a reason for me ctb'ing, but not really a major reason, but it certain is one. If there is anything positive for me in this situation is that have much fewer things holding me back if/when I do ctb someday in my life (be in my 30's, 40's, later in life, etc.).

 

[Worthless_nobody]

Is a reason but not the main reason. I have always been very lonely and find it very had to socialize or connect with anyone. I have friends I have met on the internet but they all live so far away I can't physically see any of them which sucks. Its a shitty pattern- I'm lonely but I hate being around other people therefore I end up pushing people away who care about me then I'm lonely again.

 

[soda_pressed]

Same with me. The worst part is I used to have a few, but most of them left me as soon as I started being depressed. Life sucks

 

[Final Escape]

Part of the reason why I want to ctb is because as far as i remember i have been a complete loner. Does anyone else feel this way?

I have a few friends but I still don't feel connected or able to really be close. I'm carrying too much baggage

 

[K8!]

I wouldn't say it's because I have no friends, I have friends and good friends. It's more the isolation and not allowing myself to lean on others - pride maybe

 

[noonetoo]

I feel like besides having an ugly personality, the fact that I don't have any kids, im left out by both family and just people in general. Feels like shit. Like I'm never going to be anyone or respected as an adult for not being able to do what everyone else is doing. Never going to be included or accepted for being a toxic person, let alone not a parent.

And friends are so hard to make. I remember growing up, the little money I did have, I spent it on others in hopes of being liked or tolerated. The most I made were acquaintances but I was always the lonely smart kid in the front of the class. Now I'm nothing.

 

[15dec]

I don't have many friends and don't really feel connected to them at all. Most of them have started to distance themselves in the past five months when my mental health relapsed, which was probably my fault for relying on them too much for support. Since then it's just been downhill. I rarely contact anyone and they rarely contact me. It's lonely, but I guess it's better than being really close with people like I used to and feeling a huge blow when they leave.

 

[Koal]

I have such a difficult time reaching out to people, and I'm so grateful for the one friend I have now. However the thought of losing my friend tears me up inside so much that I honestly feel worse than I felt back when I was all alone. We weren't even very close yet I still feel like we've drifted apart so much. I hate looking back and seeing how I fucked up past friendships. But it's even worse knowing that I'm currently fucking up this one and knowing that it's not too late to fix it, but having no clue how to fix it anyway.

 

[xiaomingdie]

Do you want to make friend with me?

 

[Quinlor]

Me, because I don't have a girlfriend and I hurt the unique woman that cared about me (in some moment on past) in my all life.

 

[SadGirl]

I feel like this, I have acquaintances, true friends, no, and it weighs a lot in my daily life, being lonely, is one of the reasons I want ctb.

She seems to want just someone to treat like a pet. I know the kind, though no one has ever been jealous about me.

A few weeks ago I posted how I lost all will to live and some guy said he would come to my house to hang out. Guess how many times he has come?

Honestly, I think I can only get company when I pay for it. People accept to hang out with me when I offer to pay for movie tickets or the sorts. Sometimes I think I should just accept it and just hire a prostitute, at least she would be honest about being around for the money.

I do not really know why people are like that, I thought I was the only one treated like that, sometimes I think if the problem is with me, that I did not deserve a true friend with me, people say they care. It seems they do not care about our presence or our absence, as if we were nothing. Why is it so hard ? Are we very sensitive?

 

[throwaway777]

i always feel alone .. ive never had any friends irl ... now i have some friends online they help me without them idk.. i would feel so much worse -thank u friends !!!! <3-

 

[Alchemist]

I feel like this, I have acquaintances, true friends, no, and it weighs a lot in my daily life, being lonely, is one of the reasons I want ctb.

I do not really know why people are like that, I thought I was the only one treated like that, sometimes I think if the problem is with me, that I did not deserve a true friend with me, people say they care. It seems they do not care about our presence or our absence, as if we were nothing. Why is it so hard ? Are we very sensitive?

More like caring is that they'd been told they should pretend to care, so they do just what they need to do to calm their conscience and then carry on as usual.

 

[EmotionlessWanderer]

I wish I could meet a girl who had enough of this world as much as I do and run away from society together and have adventures. Rinse and repeat until we starve and die.

 

[seekingoblivion]

Yeah it's one of my reasons. The one person I spoke to almost daily online has disappeared and I'm wondering if they're okay or I've just been ghosted.

 

[Xaphous]

Yes it's a big part of my reason but even further to isolation which keeps me in a constant despair whilst I lose every year of my life. I feel most people where I live are not the type of people I want to talk with anyway though, and no idea how to try to befriend strangers either so I just endure it.

 

[Bärchen]

The last friend i had is about 23 years ago, so yes its one of many reasons.

 

[Psilo]

Part of the reason why I want to ctb is because as far as i remember i have been a complete loner. Does anyone else feel this way?

Always have, always will.
Loneliness (s)kills.