Squiddy
Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
- Sep 4, 2019
- 5,903
I keep going back and forth between wanting to get better and wanting to ctb and it's so annoying. I wish I could be completely hopeful, but nope. I wish I had the courage to take SN.
Yeah, I have this feeling too. I feel like I have been broken beyond repair for too long... I don't even remember how is it not to be constantly depressive and suicidal.The worst is when I realize deep down I secretly don't even want to feel better anymore so I can just end it already. I don't feel like that all the time, but it's happening more and more these days.
this sounds like my lifeI keep going back and forth between wanting to get better and wanting to ctb and it's so annoying. I wish I could be completely hopeful, but nope. I wish I had the courage to take SN.
SI is bad :D.. it would be much better if SI could kick before fuck up,not after everyting is lost and forgotten xd...The title describes how I am everyday and im so fucking tired I just want to end it.
I feel this 100% :( when things seem like they're getting better, it takes 10 steps back and I end up fucked...I've always feel like i'm not entitle to get better or simply be happy. It's an emotional pain that doesn't go away. I'm tired of feeling like this and no matter how much I try to get out of this ... I ended up being more depressed.