Discussion Does anyone else want to avoid aging?

[Trashcan]

I do not want to age. It's not the only reason I want to ctb. There are many. But I've realized the only way to avoid getting older is to die. I'm in my early 20s, so some might consider me young. But I'm just not interested in the health issues that you're at higher risk for when you age. My metabolism has also already slowed down, it will only get worse as I get older. I also want to avoid being in a nursing home. This is also vain, but I'm already ugly, and it will only get worse. (Not going to post pictures so please don't ask).

I know there are ways to help you age better, but fuck it man, I'm not willing to put in the effort. I'd rather just die.

 

[Smilla]

I'm much older than you but I think this is a common feeling no matter what your age.

My Mom has early onset dementia and there is now way in hell I will endure that fate, coupled with the fact that I don't have family support which as you age is rather important.

 

[muretax]

I can totally relate to this.

Aging isn't the main reason why I want to ctb but it's one of the many small reasons why. My health is in shambles, I have several illnesses that are already guaranteed to get worse as I get older and I already feel like crap nearly everyday. But on the other hand, I'm just not excited to grow old. I'm in my early twenties also and just the thought of it and all the crap that goes with it just makes me want to ctb even faster.

 

[bigj75]

I feel the same way. Sadly I've aged tremendously.

 

[Trashcan]

I'm much older than you but I think this is a common feeling no matter what your age.

My Mom has early onset dementia and there is now way in hell I will endure that fate, coupled with the fact that I don't have family support which as you age is rather important.

Oh man I forgot about dementia. I am sincerely sorry to hear your mom has that and that you don't have family support.

My family tends to live long enough to get dementia. Just about everyone got it. One person got it relatively early. I'll most likely live to my 80s or even 90s if I don't ctb. No thanks. There are a few family members that are really getting up there in age (some in their 80s) that are independent, but it's not worth the risk.

 

[stargazer]

Yes

 

[orchidteeth]

It's scary to watch older family members basically wither away. My grandmother feels so unhappy with life because she can't do anything on her own. I never want to be like that

 

[Finallyhere]

Aging does seem pretty drab but I think it's possible to remain young at heart.

So I worry about aging and falling behind socially/mentally/financially. Losing my hair and teeth are issues, but continuing with this social awkwardness and depression is what worries me. I'd hate to go crazy over and over again and to end up alone and isolated. It's hard to make connections as an adult especially in this day and age.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

YES! I probably sound like a broken record at this point but I´ll say it again, I miss being a child so much in that wonderful world of happiness filled with imagination I am 24 years old but I see myself as EXTREMELY old since I see myself as a child or desperately wants to be so when anyone call me young I get insulted because I am not young anymore and this is btw also a big reason to why I want to ctb because I want to die young. I like how when you see people who died mostly when I watched documentaries like "the sniper in the tower" a documentary about the mass shooting in Austin Texas in 1966 by Charles Whitman and you see the pictures of him and the officers interviewed it blows my mind when I see they show pictures of these "young" officers at the age they were back in 1966 but when you see them in the interviewed they are old and it´s impossible to recognize them whereas the shooter Charles Whitman will forever be remembered as young.

So yes I want to avoid aging at all cost, for the last 3 years I have thought that I would die at 24 years old and if that didn´t happen 25 is certainly my breaking point! 25 seems so INSANELY old to me not necessarily when I see other 25 year olds but just the fact that I TheGoodGuy am soon to be that age and it scares the shit out of me. I think that I can´t be this old I am a child I YEARN to be a child and to think that only in about 7 years (the same distance from now till I was 17) I will be the same age as my parents when they got me that is terrifying! People are kids left and right I mean so many people I know and used to know like old friends, classmates and flirts are having children and getting jobs whereas I am still stuck in the same loop I was as a teenager I am nowhere near ready for this grownup life and never will be.
- I remember at the age of 18 when people I knew my age or younger started to have kids how horrible it felt and every time I saw a new Facebook announcement that somebody I used to know my own age or younger has gotten pregnant it would feel like another piece of me would die because in my mind I thought and still think "this can´t be happening we are just kids or teenagers we are not adult how can we be adult we used to live life and kids and jobs are grownup stuff people like our parents do NOT US!"

Another thing that might seem small to you but isn´t to me is males my age I used to know that now has beards again I can´t comprehend this and it makes me so scared and sad because having beards or mustaches is something fathers have (my father always have had a mustache) so when I see some people that I used to go to school with that now has mustaches or beards it´s just another punch in the stomach reminding me how old I am..

I wish I had just killed myself back when I planned to do it when I moved out at age 18 for the sole purpose to ctb I had so much drive to do it too back then because I had depression so I felt sad I FELT so much! Now I don´t feel anything anymore there is absolutely NO drive except rational thinking to why it would be best.

Btw sorry for the long post I always write too much I feel like such a girl I can never keep anything short..

 

[worldexploder]

I don't want to age due to all the complications that come with it. Technically aging is a disease called Senescence. Each time a cell in your body is replaced, the new one is less efficient. In fact, our entire bodies are replaced slowly by an older unhealither us. The process takes about a decade. The "you" that existed 10 years ago actually is dead. All the memories you had a decade ago are just recordings on new cells. Crazy ain't it?

I'll CTB long before the doctors start suggesting I get my first colonoscopy.

 

[Help_Me]

Same for me, bro. It gets even harder when I suddenly start feeling I am 80 years old person. I am taking bath / washing constantly, as I always think my skin literally ages in a few seconds. ofc this is stupid and I realize that, but can't do anything. My mind just playing tricks on me, this is soooo mental (((

 

[worldexploder]

Same for me, bro. It gets even harder when I suddenly start feeling I am 80 years old person. I am taking bath / washing constantly, as I always think my skin literally ages in a few seconds. ofc this is stupid and I realize that, but can't do anything. My mind just playing tricks on me, this is soooo mental (((

I can defiantly relate. With my mental health issues and lack of taking care of my physical body, I am aging quicker. I probably have the health of a 50 or 60 year old.

 

[Thoughtforms]

Yes
Sorry if this sounds patronising but you have a long time before you need to think about that. So much will happen in the next 10 years and you'll still be young then.
I'm in my early 30s, I get told I look 24/25 constantly. People are shocked to hear how old I am.
You can be whatever age you want mentally.
But my cut off is here. I don't want to get any older.

 

[Jodes]

Yeh - I'm mid to late 30s. Had some short periods of severe pain and long mild physical health problems so far. I'm not coping now so no chance in HELL am I hanging around for the worst stuff to slowly kill me in state care. What terrifies me the most is there's no escape once there.

 

[Mr2005]

When I was younger I didn't want to grow up. Now I don't want to grow old

 

[Morbid Cam]

Yeah I've always had a fear of aging, I see my grandmother struggle to get around and it really breaks my heart, not only that but the many health conditions (diabetes,othoritis, high blood pressure,etc) she has now, I just dont want to live to get old, Ive always dreaded the future

 

[Susannah]

I'm much older than you but I think this is a common feeling no matter what your age.

My Mom has early onset dementia and there is now way in hell I will endure that fate, coupled with the fact that I don't have family support which as you age is rather important.

Sorry to hear. My mum's got a severe neurolocical disease and I've been taking care of here since I was 18y (I'm now 40). My dad has dementia, so I help him too (they're separeted). I've never had family support, so I know how hard it is. I feel like 80y old in my head, but I look young. Aging isn't my problem. I just never had the chance to be young and "free".

 

[funnyvalentine]

Sorry to hear. My mum's got a severe neurolocical disease and I've been taking care of here since I was 18y (I'm now 40). My dad has dementia, so I help him too (they're separeted). I've never had family support, so I know how hard it is. I feel like 80y old in my head, but I look young. Aging isn't my problem. I just never had the chance to be young and "free".

That is a long stretch to look after somebody, you must be utterly exhausted. Hopefully things will change for you eventually.
You must be an amazing person.

 

[Susannah]

That is a long stretch to look after somebody, you must be utterly exhausted. Hopefully things will change for you eventually.
You must be an amazing person.

I'm not amazing! I just thought I had no choice but to stay close. And yes, I'm exhausted. That's mainly why I'm here, longing for a peaceful death. I feel my life passed me by. And for what? My mum's not grateful. She just wants more and more. I'm trapped.

Being a parent myself, I will never burden my child like that. He's my reason to live and I'll "let him go" when he gets older. It's important that parents eventually let their children "cut the bound", in order to live their own lives, experience things, make relations, explore.

 

[Sundayafternoon]

I know there are ways to help you age better, but fuck it man, I'm not willing to put in the effort. I'd rather just die.

I do not like it one bit. Plus, what does it mean to age "better"? Lol ageing is dying. But i do want to die better.

 

[funnyvalentine]

I'm not amazing! I just thought I had no choice but to stay close. And yes, I'm exhausted. That's mainly why I'm here, longing for a peaceful death. I feel my life passed me by. And for what? My mum's not grateful. She just wants more and more. I'm trapped.

Being a parent myself, I will never burden my child like that. He's my reason to live and I'll "let him go" when he gets older. It's important that parents eventually let their children "cut the bound", in order to live their own lives, experience things, make relations, explore.

I have seen this kind of behaviour of parents quite often...sigh...one of these grinding facts of life.
What about getting more help or - a heathenous thought - putting her in a home ? You have a life too and are exhausted...

 

[throwaway_2620]

The fear of ageing and wanting to avoid the ageing process is one of several reasons why I want to ctb because let's be honest. Getting old sucks. Your metabolism slows down, increasing your risk of weight gain as you get older, you become less physically attractive as you age, your physical ability to exercise declines as you age and you become increasingly prone to health problems (diabetes, arthritis, heart disease, dementia, cancer, etc). My grandmother is 90, gets around on a walker and has to have carers look after her on a regular basis. At one stage, she was at risk of being put into a nursing home and chances are, she'll probably end up in one eventually. No thanks, I rather die young.

 

[bigj75]

The fear of ageing and wanting to avoid the ageing process is one of several reasons why I want to ctb because let's be honest. Getting old sucks. Your metabolism slows down, increasing your risk of weight gain as you get older, you become less physically attractive as you age, your physical ability to exercise declines as you age and you become increasingly prone to health problems (diabetes, arthritis, heart disease, dementia, cancer, etc). My grandmother is 90, gets around on a walker and has to have carers look after her on a regular basis. At one stage, she was at risk of being put into a nursing home and chances are, she'll probably end up in one eventually. No thanks, I rather die young.

That's what I'm saying. When i see old people it makes me feel like we aren't meant to be that old. Below 50 is a good age to die in my opinion.

 

[wanttodie]

im 55 i thanks this is a good age for me to die

 

[divinized]

Definitely. I'm scared of getting older. Life will only get worse for me when I do.

 

[Severen]

Aging is one of my reasons... One of many though. Not sure if aging alone would make me want to CTB. Probably though, considering I've spent a lot of time in hospitals and seen what kind of stuff, old people have to go through.

 

[Bread]

This is a fear no one I know in real life understands. Like you said, I'm vain and I don't want to become uglier than I already am. I also never aged mentally past 13, so the idea that I'm technically an "adult" makes me feel sick.