Does anyone else sabotage personal relationships...

[411esme]

... so it's easier for the other person when you CTB?

I find myself distancing myself from friends or trying to negatively impact their perception of me so that it hurts them less when I eventually pass. I know that after the fact they'll probably see right through it, since it's a bit out of character for me. I just don't want them to be hurt.

Does anyone else do this? Intentionally or otherwise?

 

[Nature_is_God]

I don't think I know how to love. I don't think I'm sociopathic or something because I still care about other peoples' feelings, but I hate words of affection towards me. I prefer to be alone, away from family or people in general. I wish I can just accept love.

I guess this means nothing for this thread because this has nothing to do with CTBing, but yeah, I always sabotage personal relationships.

 

[Deleted member 19654]

I do this too. I've slowly distanced myself from people by just not replying to messages etc. A lot of people don't bother messaging me any more and I feel it's better to just let them forget about me

I don't think I know how to love. I don't think I'm sociopathic or something because I still care about other peoples' feelings, but I hate words of affection towards me. I prefer to be alone, away from family or people in general. I wish I can just accept love.

I guess this means nothing for this thread because this has nothing to do with CTBing, but yeah, I always sabotage personal relationships.

I can kind of relate. I think it comes down to me having low esteem and feeling like I don't deserve it. If you care about other people's feelings then you're probably not a sociopath because sociopaths/psychopaths tend to lack empathy.

 

[W3akCr3atur3]

I think it slowly happens itself the closer I get to ctb.

However I'll try to seriously ruin my relationships with people who would've cared for me when I'll be too close to ctb.

 

[clearing eyes]

yep. well, i've been sabotaging relationships even before i had a plan to ctb, but that's because i have borderline personality disorder. any time someone gets too close to me, i start to hate them and break it off.

 

[esse_est_percipi]

Yes. I can't deal with life or relationships. I just wish I could stop existing and be wiped from people's memories.

 

[sadghost]

Yeah, I've deleted all of my social media accounts and stopped talking to most people. If somebody directly texts or calls me I will reply but I don't make an active effort to reach out anymore. I'm distancing myself from everyone and everything since I'm ready to go soon

 

[iDieUDie80]

Not for the same reason. In the past I've sabotaged close friendships because of strong emotional attachment and fear of abandonment.

 

[Nymph]

... so it's easier for the other person when you CTB?

I find myself distancing myself from friends or trying to negatively impact their perception of me so that it hurts them less when I eventually pass. I know that after the fact they'll probably see right through it, since it's a bit out of character for me. I just don't want them to be hurt.

Does anyone else do this? Intentionally or otherwise?

Literally couldn't relate to you more, I have done this to multiple friends I had over the years and at first we are really close and go out together and later I start distancing myself and being less friendly with them and it ends up that we stop talking together. I don't know why I do it and why it suddenly starts. I just do and it annoys me because I like my friends but I can't stop my actions