I was feeling at my worse a couple days ago, I felt anxious to ctb so I decided to visit my family for the last time, in the mix I didn't feel like getting up I stayed for days not having the urge to get up because I knew if I went back to my dorm I was going to ctb. Don't have the energy to get up and don't have any motivation whatsoever but being around really shows me my family cares about me a lot, not that it matters to my reason to not ctb but I'm curious if anyone has this bipolar mindset where it switches to very very bad intentions to moderate okay intentions. Honestly I've been through this same cycle and I'm tired of it but everytime I'm doing ok I don't have the energy or thought process to ctb.
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This is what's kept me from committing for years. I hate my life, and I know I hate my life, but whenever I get close to doing it the voice in my brain tells me "Oh but maybe things will improve one day...". I know those chances are very low but for some reason I still listen to that voice. My SN got delivered yesterday, and now that I have the option to ctb any night of my choosing, that voice keeps getting stronger.Similar threads
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