Does anyone else have self harm scars?

[Bread]

I self harmed for quite a few years before my physical health problems made too weak to do it anymore. I have scars on my arms, ribcage, hip area, thighs, and some faint ones on my shins. The ones on my arms and upper legs are fairly visible and I sometimes notice people staring at them when I'm in public. I bet they think I'm crazy and disgusting.

I miss cutting so much. It made me feel great, like I had actually done something right for once. My health conditions are a little better so I could start doing it again, but there's a part of me that regrets it. These days I just hit myself instead because the bruises won't be permanent.

I feel like even if my life turned around I'd be ostracized because of my scars. I don't want to have to wear long sleeves and full length pants every single day just so I can hold a job. Have any of you been discriminated against because of your scars?

 

[whywait]

I have small scars all over my forearm, arm, and deep ones on one leg to the knee. I keep the legs covered mostly, but am over wearing long sleeves. A few times people caught sight of them, I told them I didn't want to talk about it. No one ever bothered me for it, in fact most people respond very kindly to me afterwards. But sometimes at work I catch customers staring or acting awkward to me (unable to make eye contact all of a sudden etc) and I get a little embarrassed. But overall, it's not anywhere near as bad as I expected it to be lol.

 

[[NoName]]

I haven't been through this. I just wanted to say I wish you luck in getting a new job and that it's a positive environment for you .

 

[Bread]

I haven't been through this. I just wanted to say I wish you luck in getting a new job and that it's a positive environment for you .

Thank you for your support though I wanted to clarify I've never had a job due to my poor health and I have no idea if I'll ever be well enough to work in the future. Just another reason to ctb.

 

[divinized]

I have some self harm scars on my right arm, shoulder, and one weird-looking puffy one on my leg. I'm trying to stop self harming for a bit because my family knows at the moment so it's a bit awkward. I know how you feel when you said you missed cutting. I usually try not to think about it or just pinch myself, but that barely helps lol.

 

[Lara Francis]

I self harmed for quite a few years before my physical health problems made too weak to do it anymore. I have scars on my arms, ribcage, hip area, thighs, and some faint ones on my shins. The ones on my arms and upper legs are fairly visible and I sometimes notice people staring at them when I'm in public. I bet they think I'm crazy and disgusting.

I miss cutting so much. It made me feel great, like I had actually done something right for once. My health conditions are a little better so I could start doing it again, but there's a part of me that regrets it. These days I just hit myself instead because the bruises won't be permanent.

I feel like even if my life turned around I'd be ostracized because of my scars. I don't want to have to wear long sleeves and full length pants every single day just so I can hold a job. Have any of you been discriminated against because of your scars?

Please don't start self harming again.
It is so hard to stop.I wish I could find something else in its place but unfortunately this has not happened yet.

 

[Christina]

Yes I have them on my arms and I try to cover them up by wearing long sleves when I go out or with someone. I'm already a freak as it is and I dont want pity or judgement to be added on to that.

 

[silentinbetween]

Yes, the bad ones from cutting are on my upper thighs and hips. I've been scratching and punching more recently, and I prefer that as they don't really scar. Well, I do have a couple of scars from scratching. It's not as much of a rush as cutting but it's better than nothing.