I loathe the summer, I have skin issues and damage so absolutely no sun or heat for me. Although they are hard to avoid.
And yes, there is the other nauseating issue of everyone being outside my window laughing and radiating joy with their social gatherings. I feel like I am being taunted.
I can't even get any fresh air (which I really need because I can barely fucking breathe), plus my yard is like a fishbowl with neighbors able to see everything from every side (it's down an incline so it's not just neighbors on the sides but in the back in every direction.) So no privacy either, even if I were to risk it out there.
With the amount of cameras people have at the ready to shoot and then post on Facebook, I'm not taking any chances.
I have been made fun of enough for a hundred lifetimes, I don't have the tolerance for more.
I prefer rainy or snowy days where everyone is inside and they can't come out to flaunt how contrasting their lives are to mine, this includes my own relatives who are happy to congregate amongst each-other, not missing my absence or caring about my suffering.
The unfairness enrages me.
They fill their bellies while I am forced to get wind of it from afar, there is no vicarious happiness, just a metaphorical water bottle being dangled over my parched existence, chained to misery.
Then there is the issue of clothing, I need to cover myself up and that's hard to do in the summer, without drawing even more negative attention, but if I wear appropriate clothing for the weather, I may be subjecting myself to even more bullying if I leave the house, as my physical detriments unfortunately don't end above the neck.
In a perfect world, or a more agreeable one, I would probably like the summer on its own, outside of the human charades, but that's not how things are.
Ah, summer.. The time where I feel like I'm dying and always have problem with my body :|
Each summer, feels like a VHS Tape for me. First I become way to underweight, at some point my nose starts bleeding (and no. it's not because I seeing something nsfw hehe ) and then if I want to go out in the evening, I'm mostly get bitten by some blood sucking creature : P
And yes, this sucks too.
Everyone walking around, holding hands, doing all those cheesy things.
It's just hard to ignore and so far, my local Starbucks seems to be the only place for me, where I don't get exposed to this crap, can sit with my laptop and drink some ice cold coffe while also staying cold, thanks to their amazing Siemens smart A/C systems ^^
Wow I'm surprised Starbucks is your safe place, I avoid it like the plague even if I desperately want a drink from there.
Where I am from, that place attracts snobs, catty individuals, and lots of couples and friend groups who stick their nose up at others.
Unbearable heat, humidity, and bugs. Overrated garbage season.
The STINK BUGS are straight from HELL.
The past few years they come out in droves like horror-helicopters and their legs dangling from their bodies above you, the first sign of warmer weather and they make their way out of hiding.
They have ruined many a night's sleep for me, and I'm an insomniac so I can't afford their bullshit.
