Does anyone else get anxious when they see/hear ambulance or police vehicles? (Esp when together)

[d3j3ct3dl0s3r05]

Idk I always think "oh no they've come to take me to the looney bin" and it's this pervasive fear that keeps me from talking to anyone irl about my problems.

 

[Seered Doom]

OH MY GOD, I HAVE SIMILAR FEARS

 

[The Burning Fool]

Idk I always think "oh no they've come to take me to the looney bin" and it's this pervasive fear that keeps me from talking to anyone irl about my problems.

Absolutely. I'm so afraid of being locked up for weeks that I've shut myself in for years. And I even think that this is reasonable behavior on my part.

 

[d3j3ct3dl0s3r05]

Absolutely. I'm so afraid of being locked up for weeks that I've shut myself in for years. And I even think that this is reasonable behavior on my part.

Yeah it's not ideal but the system is even less ideal so I'd much prefer to keep silent lol

OH MY GOD, I HAVE SIMILAR FEARS

Ikr like I get a little heart attack

 

[namename555]

Sometimes I think I hear someone knock at the front door. It's always just my upstairs neighbors being loud.

 

[d3j3ct3dl0s3r05]

Sometimes I think I hear someone knock at the front door. It's always just my upstairs neighbors being loud.

knocks are actually super terrifying (also I once thought that too but then I looked through the peephole and saw cops, not a fun time)

 

[KuriGohan&Kamehameha]

I think this is a common and understandable fear for anyone who has had even a little taste of the psychiatric system. It's dehumanising and humiliating. When I failed an attempt and had to deny it, I was treated like such an idiot by the police and it was made into a public spectacle. It has taken me many years not to feel afraid when I hear ambulances or police car sirens driving past on the street. I wish they were not involved with suicidal people at all, it further enforces the widespread beliefs that we are lunatics who are viewed as dangerous for no other reason than being miserable.

 

[SN drinker]

When the cops came to my house because of IC SN, they called the ambulance and firetrucks because they were afraid or some shit. Since then, my heart starts to pound in my chest everytime I hear firetruck & ambulance sirens.

 

[Gloomislost]

Idk I always think "oh no they've come to take me to the looney bin" and it's this pervasive fear that keeps me from talking to anyone irl about my problems.

YES!! Especially around cops because I have super bad paranoia with them. I instantly think that they're gonna lock me away.

 

[sserafim]

Yeah I always get scared whenever I hear sirens, I have an irrational fear of getting arrested…idek why

 

[snowlance]

Absolutely! I see them often when doing uber and I always freak out. Especially when they're following you for awhile or something

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Yes. Standard trauma response.

 

[sjoper1980]

Yep. god yes. Absolutely.

 

[callme]

I am at cust service where cops come in the night to eat, so no.

But I do think when I hear police sirens, man, if I had ordered N or SN jeez, that could be for me.

In this fucked power structure parading as a country, I don't even want to know what will happen if I am taken in. Mental hospitals here are worse than prisons. Can't afford it, so no therapists or doctors - ever. I will live with as many suspected ilnesses without any help whatsoever until I crash and burn and then I'll have the courtesy to ctb

 

[DeadHead]

No, I just get angry because I hate pigs.

 

[maka]

Yes omg. The police broke my door for a "wellness check" (didn't make me feel any better, fuck the police), and now every time the police comes anywhere near my building I get so scared. Doesn't help I live next to a station so I have to hear the sirens all the time. It's a nightmare.

 

[Old Friend]

They kicked the door in? Jeez!

 

[CPY]

I used to have this then learned they are powerless at least in my country because thankfully we have a strict law on this

 

[gbi2]

Last time that happened near me it was because one neighbour had hit another neighbour in the head with a hammer

I've been upfront with the police and mental health services and my GP about my likely future suicide attempt and they have just accepted it might happen. I haven't had any welfare check since I first tried to ctb last year. Not that this is a complaint. I'd hate thinking a check could come at any time.

 

[annointed_towers]

I don't get anxious I imagine that someday it'll be for me when my body is found

 

[BlockHammer]

Im not really anxious about that, but if those sound came in to my house when im trying to ctb, well let's just said that things wouldnt go well for me.

 

[Kalista]

I'm paranoid about sirens now as well. It gets my heart rate going a bit. After being called the cops on me twice and a random visit, I get anxious whenever I hear it. Even when I'm not near my place.

If somehow they end up trying to forcibly search my house for a weapon, that'll be the day when I'll close and lock the door on them, grab my method and be done with it. Forcing me to CTB early.

I hate cops.

 

[Gonnerr]

I say to myself , somebody there will be one for me , my dead body.

Almost every time i see one.

 

[AInilam]

Yes, sometimes I feel like they do it on purpose just to taunt me because of last year's mental breakdown, like it's a joke to them because I told them I had a fear of cops thinking they'd be more understanding. Instead they treated me like some wild animal, like I had committed some heinous crime just for wanting to end my life, made me feel even more terrified and vulnerable than I already was at the time. I'm still traumatized from the experience. I will never trust police, emergency responders, etc ever again for this reason. The psych ward hold was no different.