Does anyone else feel really guilty for their roomate

[StrawberryRed]

I impusively tried partial hanging and was close to passing out but stopped cause I kept thinking of my roomate who would find me. I felt so bad for her, I really like her and I dont want to mess up her life or traumatize her in any way. Alot of the options out of house are the same problem but with strangers. I thought about jumping off a bridge but the closest bridge tall enough is a full day bus ride away. Im scared I will spend a ton of money to go there and still back out. Has anyone else solved this issue?

 

[TheTwelthRootOfTwo]

I feel the same way about my housemate. And I did the same thing via partial suspension hanging. Was totally blacking out and somehow managed to get back up (I don't remember that part). And yeah, I've thought about what you said about the bridge. The closest one is about a 20 minute drive (it's near a city with several overpasses, the largest of which is about 90'). My thought is that I'd get there and then totally chicken out.

I can't say I've "solved this", but I do understand.

 

[Exhausted546]

I impusively tried partial hanging and was close to passing out but stopped cause I kept thinking of my roomate who would find me. I felt so bad for her, I really like her and I dont want to mess up her life or traumatize her in any way. Alot of the options out of house are the same problem but with strangers. I thought about jumping off a bridge but the closest bridge tall enough is a full day bus ride away. Im scared I will spend a ton of money to go there and still back out. Has anyone else solved this issue?

How about going to the woods instead?

 

[truehappiness]

I impusively tried partial hanging and was close to passing out but stopped cause I kept thinking of my roomate who would find me. I felt so bad for her, I really like her and I dont want to mess up her life or traumatize her in any way. Alot of the options out of house are the same problem but with strangers. I thought about jumping off a bridge but the closest bridge tall enough is a full day bus ride away. Im scared I will spend a ton of money to go there and still back out. Has anyone else solved this issue?

One of the most important thing is to keep in mind that when you pass the suffering for them will only be shortlived.

In the end you become nothing else but a statistic on some board and the "story of that one person who killed themselves".
You should carefully think if the sparing of potentially a few months of suffering for your friends/roommate is worth your current suffering.

In the end this is obviously completely your choice and I hope that you will be able to get the closure you need to get back to being happy in life again <3
If it is not too private what exactly is your reason for wanting to exit?

 

[GodzillasBiggestFan]

yes, before all three of my attempts since i've moved in with him, i just think of him. im waiting for now for a few reasons but i know as i get closer to the new date i'll be thinking of him more and more.

 

[StrawberryRed]

How about going to the woods instead?

Yeah that's a good idea. I live relatively close to a very large ( thousand of acres) park. The strangers thing still worries me but if I go far enough maybe it won't be a problem?

One of the most important thing is to keep in mind that when you pass the suffering for them will only be shortlived.

In the end you become nothing else but a statistic on some board and the "story of that one person who killed themselves".
You should carefully think if the sparing of potentially a few months of suffering for your friends/roommate is worth your current suffering.

In the end this is obviously completely your choice and I hope that you will be able to get the closure you need to get back to being happy in life again <3
If it is not too private what exactly is your reason for wanting to exit?

Its not too private, its mostly just depression. The problems in my life are annoying but not yk that bad. I've basically been constantly severely depressed for the last 7 years. It hurts a lot and I really dont see any value to my life if I have to live like this. Basically its just not worth it to me. Thanks for asking! I think the same thing sometimes, that compared to last couple years of my life whatever other people may feel about me just won't compare yk?

 

[truehappiness]

Yeah that's a good idea. I live relatively close to a very large ( thousand of acres) park. The strangers thing still worries me but if I go far enough maybe it won't be a problem?

Its not too private, its mostly just depression. The problems in my life are annoying but not yk that bad. I've basically been constantly severely depressed for the last 7 years. It hurts a lot and I really dont see any value to my life if I have to live like this. Basically its just not worth it to me. Thanks for asking! I think the same thing sometimes, that compared to last couple years of my life whatever other people may feel about me just won't compare yk?

Ah that is very valid.
For me it is a permanent sadness I have had stuck in my brain since 2013. Nothing could ever fix that.

And yes. That is important. Never compare your own suffering with the suffering of others