Does anyone else feel like this?

[Lily (Osako)]

I've really come to terms with the fact that I am totally and completely alone.
I think this has helped me embrace my decision.
Everyone has their own lives to live. I can't and won't burden them with what's going on with mine.
I refuse to allow my limitations hold anyone back from pursuing and fulfilling their lives and happiness.

 

[want2dienow]

-Yes
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[suicidalwillreturn]

You're not alone here though, we still can see what you post.

 

[Lauriso]

When I became depressed I expected my friends to be there and support me through the darkness. I was proved wrong. No one wants to be bothered by your pain.
OK, I exaggerate a little, some people listen and express compassion, but rarely does anyone check in or ask how I'm doing. Apart from my mom. Who sadly doesn't really understand.

 

[want2dienow]

I'm alone in reality.

 

[foreverfalling]

Yes I feel this way too. I never understood how conversation worked. It's just people taking turns making noises, but this somehow made people less lonely? I realised no one really cares about anyone else. Just ask yourself that question and you will understand. Everyone is busy trying to solve their own problems. Sometimes your problems may line up with someone else's, and you may feel some semblance of connection. But once it's over it becomes the same again, and once you realise this, there's no point sharing anything with anyone. It becomes a deep existential loneliness.

 

[Julgran]

I've really come to terms with the fact that I am totally and completely alone.
I think this has helped me embrace my decision.
Everyone has their own lives to live. I can't and won't burden them with what's going on with mine.
I refuse to allow my limitations hold anyone back from pursuing and fulfilling their lives and happiness.

If you have a reason to end your life, you seem to be of a healthy mindset. I don't mean to say that this alone sounds like a legitimate reason, but I'm not one to judge anyone, so my point is that it's honorable of you to not want to burden other people with your existence.

 

[HopefulButPrepared]

It's just people taking turns making noises

that's funny! And I have that picture on my bedroom wall - it's funny because anyone who looks at it just thinks it's a beautiful picture of a plane at dusk, which couldn't be further from the truth - it's so sneaky, I love it!

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that it's better to be alone. I never really feel lonely personally. People can be very tiring.

 

[thundercat]

I've been alone my whole life. When I was younger, I thought I had friends but they just enjoyed how much I cared for them. I will admit I made poor choices in choosing people to open up to. My parents are abusive, I've never been close to family. My dog passed last year.

Being alone largely doesn't bother me. It's the feeling of wasting all that time & emotion on awful people. Remembering how far i went to be there for anyone I cared about, meanwhile I was struggling horribly. Stuff like that.

 

[Lily (Osako)]

I've been alone my whole life. When I was younger, I thought I had friends but they just enjoyed how much I cared for them. I will admit I made poor choices in choosing people to open up to. My parents are abusive, I've never been close to family. My dog passed last year.

Being alone largely doesn't bother me. It's the feeling of wasting all that time & emotion on awful people. Remembering how far i went to be there for anyone I cared about, meanwhile I was struggling horribly. Stuff like that.

I totally get you

I think that it's better to be alone. I never really feel lonely personally. People can be very tiring.

Yes. I've grown comfortable being alone. I prefer it now.

 

[Guend]

I believe that people don't really understand what we are feeling until they are in the same situation. I tried to talk to someone but failed.

 

[Lily (Osako)]

I believe that people don't really understand what we are feeling until they are in the same situation. I tried to talk to someone but failed.

If you'd like to talk, I'm here. I won't take it personally if you don't. Just want to let you know you have someone willing to listen. I don't have any answers, but I do have an ear to listen and a shoulder to cry on.

 

[Guend]

If you'd like to talk, I'm here. I won't take it personally if you don't. Just want to let you know you have someone willing to listen. I don't have any answers, but I do have an ear to listen and a shoulder to cry on.

thank you so much

 

[Lily (Osako)]

When I became depressed I expected my friends to be there and support me through the darkness. I was proved wrong. No one wants to be bothered by your pain.
OK, I exaggerate a little, some people listen and express compassion, but rarely does anyone check in or ask how I'm doing. Apart from my mom. Who sadly doesn't really understand.

Just checking in on you. Big hugs.