Oblivion Lover
No life, no suffering
- May 30, 2019
- 360
I just saw a thread with a video about a grieving mother and thought about this. I mean, I'm not trying to sound heartless, but I simply don't care about how my parents, especially my mother and my father, are going to feel when I kill myself. If anything, it makes me glad that they're finally going to pay for not treating me well.
I've never been close to them because we're just so different, and I always felt like I was born in the wrong family. I thought it would be different with my young brother, but no. He's just annoying and foolish like them and is on the way to become other religious fanatic on the family. Honestly I think that he will be glad when I'm gone, even if he is still a kid, because we always hated each other. I can feel that nobody likes the way I am and wants me to change. They're all disappointed because I'm not a religious sheep like them and I'm just too serious. But I'm not going to change just to please them, and if they are going to disregard my feelings, then I'm going to do the same with them.
The worst offenders, though, are my mother and my father. Not only they dislike me the way I am and never had been close to me, but also they're the ones to blame for all the suffering I went through until now. I never asked to be born. I never asked for this pathetic life. Yet here I am, exclusively because of them. They knew that this life was full of suffering, and still had me and other two kids (one of them who fortunately died after birth and didn't had to live in is hellhole) just to satisfy their egos. My mother openly admitted to me that she had me because she wanted someone to love her and to take care of her when she was old. Well, b*tch, that backfired, huh? Now you've got a son that dislikes you and is determined to kill himself. I just can't believe that people can be so stupid and selfish. Having kids is the worst thing anyone can do in my opinion, specially when the purpose is for them to serve their fathers until they die. It makes me feel so angry. I can't bring myself to care even a little bit about the suffering of them.
Does anyone else feel like this? Not giving a damn about how your parents will feel? Everyone here seems to be very guilty that they're going to make their parents suffer, so I was wondering if I was the only one who didn't care at all.
I've never been close to them because we're just so different, and I always felt like I was born in the wrong family. I thought it would be different with my young brother, but no. He's just annoying and foolish like them and is on the way to become other religious fanatic on the family. Honestly I think that he will be glad when I'm gone, even if he is still a kid, because we always hated each other. I can feel that nobody likes the way I am and wants me to change. They're all disappointed because I'm not a religious sheep like them and I'm just too serious. But I'm not going to change just to please them, and if they are going to disregard my feelings, then I'm going to do the same with them.
The worst offenders, though, are my mother and my father. Not only they dislike me the way I am and never had been close to me, but also they're the ones to blame for all the suffering I went through until now. I never asked to be born. I never asked for this pathetic life. Yet here I am, exclusively because of them. They knew that this life was full of suffering, and still had me and other two kids (one of them who fortunately died after birth and didn't had to live in is hellhole) just to satisfy their egos. My mother openly admitted to me that she had me because she wanted someone to love her and to take care of her when she was old. Well, b*tch, that backfired, huh? Now you've got a son that dislikes you and is determined to kill himself. I just can't believe that people can be so stupid and selfish. Having kids is the worst thing anyone can do in my opinion, specially when the purpose is for them to serve their fathers until they die. It makes me feel so angry. I can't bring myself to care even a little bit about the suffering of them.
Does anyone else feel like this? Not giving a damn about how your parents will feel? Everyone here seems to be very guilty that they're going to make their parents suffer, so I was wondering if I was the only one who didn't care at all.