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nigelhernandez

nigelhernandez

Experienced
Apr 14, 2020
270
I absolutely hate life and the only time when it doesn't suck is when I'm drunk or high on codeine, nicotine. My parents are against drug use which suck so I have to abide by their rules.
 
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DeadSpace666

DeadSpace666

My body is a cage
May 11, 2020
16
I'm sorry that your parents are keeping you from your way of coping.. my escape is smoking marijuana I'm almost always stoned.. it keeps me numb to am extent. At least numb enough to go through another day.
 
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watereyes

watereyes

les malheurs de lizzie
Mar 27, 2020
736
yeah i drink as much as i can
 
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K-O

K-O

FU(KOFFEE
Apr 16, 2020
1,462
I'm sorry that your parents are keeping you from your way of coping.. my escape is smoking marijuana I'm almost always stoned.. it keeps me numb to am extent. At least numb enough to go through another day.
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terry_a_davis

terry_a_davis

Warlock
Dec 28, 2019
707
I wish! Drugs don't effect me like they used to, the high isn't as good and the side effects are felt more. I think i fried too many serotonin transporters during my heavy drug taking days years ago. I'm nearly always sober now and it's boring.
 
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your pathologist

your pathologist

¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Sep 5, 2018
519
I wish I could smoke like I used to.
I used to be stoned constantly.
Now if I take more than two hits I get super paranoid and scared and my thoughts feel like they're eating my brain. Which sucks cuz I used to smoke for years to feel... Normal.
I used to drink heavily too but my health has been so bad and I live with an ex alcoholic so drinking again would bring our demise...
Much more so than my own causes..
 
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Red

Red

Warlock
Apr 10, 2019
744
Inadvertently get high trying to mix painkillers to get pain to go away. Not too keen on the high at all from them - weed is my panacea!
 
LMLN

LMLN

Paragon
Aug 10, 2019
929
I use alcohol and benzos. Trying to stop, but its so hard.
 
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helpmehelpme

helpmehelpme

self and collective help
Jan 25, 2020
76
Echo, echo of what others have said. Pot no longer brings a pleasant high -- mostly hyper-awareness of body pains and paranoid thoughts. Drinking only makes me sleepy. Mushrooms don't affect me much because of my Rx. My go-to is getting in cold water and aligning with the sun.

I'd love to have more longer-acting relief. My doc thinks Wellbutrin will help. Not sure it will but am willing to try.
 
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Winter_Flower

Always thirsty for summer rain x
May 18, 2019
72
Currently codiene, diazepam and alcohol but looking for something much stronger x
 
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NightmareTour

NightmareTour

Specialist
May 13, 2020
398
Cocaine and alcohol. Always waiting for the weekend so I can spend it drunk and high. The only way to feel normal or okay anymore, really. MDMA stopped working and only makes me anxious now, and my ex made it impossible for me to get morphine, so I can't go back on that.
 
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WOODESITY

WOODESITY

Experienced
Mar 15, 2019
217
I've been addicted on alcohol since i was child, later i discovered marijuana, now those two are my substances of reducing my anxiety and racing thoughts, it helps in fact, also has negative effects, health which i don't care. Only side effect is paranoia and increased anxiety but it feels much different than my sober brain, high that i get is worth for me.
 
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RayoSinSol

RayoSinSol

I can’t ignore the abyss. It is real.
Mar 26, 2020
108
I wish I could be drunk all the time. Maybe then I'd be able to function better.

Unfortunately, that's not how the mechanisms of alcohol work.

Maybe someday we'll have neural interfacing chips that allow that kind of possibility. Probably not in my conceivable lifetime though.
 
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Broken Chimera

Broken Chimera

The abyss also gazes into you
May 27, 2019
972
I used to smoke weed and drink almost everyday. It stopped numbing me so I stopped.
 
fantasy_function

fantasy_function

only way left is out
May 13, 2020
190
yes, yes, infinite times yes. it feels like the only time i can get any fucking respite is when i'm out of my head off of smth. my parents are like urs--i tend 2 wait an hour or so after their bedtime n play drug combo till i pass out. i hate the feeling of dependency that comes w this kind of mindset, tho. like, fuck, i need x or y or z 2 feel any kind of good cuz i can't do that shit myself
 
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GoneGoneGone

Enlightened
Apr 1, 2020
1,141
Benzos but they've lost their potency
 
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beyond_aquila_rift

beyond_aquila_rift

Student
May 11, 2020
103
I've been drinking pretty much every single day. I got alcohol poisoning a few days ago and my only regret is that I'm physically rejecting alcohol and can't get drunk until the notion of drinking doesn't make me throw up more
 
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Fragile

Fragile

Broken
Jul 7, 2019
1,496
yep, i'm high on some substance almost 24/7.

if something makes me feel less shitty then you bet that i'm going to abuse the hell out of it, sobriety is not something that i can tolerate at this point.
 
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Isittimetogonola

Isittimetogonola

Kindness is a weakness to be taken advantage by al
Oct 22, 2019
198
I have done more coke and drank than I have in my whole life. Not proud but for a moment the pain subsides.
 
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Zilch

Zilch

Member
Apr 30, 2020
11
I absolutely hate life and the only time when it doesn't suck is when I'm drunk or high on codeine, nicotine. My parents are against drug use which suck so I have to abide by their rules.
I am either stoned or really drunk most of the time it seems to be the best way to get through the day
But the lockdown has prevented me from being able to get any marijuana
 
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mathieu

mathieu

Enlightened
Jun 5, 2019
1,091
I was coping this way but I'm so tolerant to opiates now they don't do much for me, I probably need to start shooting up but can't figure out how.
 
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suffocatingseraphim

suffocatingseraphim

⸙𖦹killing the self as to protect it from harm𖦹⸙
Feb 6, 2020
105
absolutely, I never feel as though the body I'm in is comfortable, and my mind never helps much to make me feel more human. Usually sleeping pills work well to get me fucked up, and I've taken to smoking more. I used to use codeine fairly often on top of alcohol, but I don't have access to either of those now. I wish I could be plastered all day.
 
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SuicideBoys93

SuicideBoys93

I am the lord of loneliness.
Feb 10, 2020
324
I smoke weed for insomnia, helps with everything else at night. Everything peaks in the morning, and at night. I don't smoke during the day. Usually just like joint. Enough to feel good, and get sleepy.
 
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Disco Biscuit

Specialist
Mar 1, 2020
350
No, I don't take any drugs or drink alcohol. I don't like how they make me feel afterwards. Exercise is my drug these days.
 
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Sotired_

Member
Mar 1, 2020
21
Anything that makes you sleep...
 
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Unspoken

Member
Jan 12, 2020
57
Definitely. Anything that helps escape reality is what I want. Drinking, benzos, weed, molly, coke. I also binge eat to an extreme extent. The only issue is living with my parents. I hate for them to notice how messed up I am.
 
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Huntfish34

Huntfish34

Enlightened
Mar 13, 2020
1,623
Same for me, I drink and do numerous drugs ( alcohol, cigs, weed, meth, Molly, Cid, shrooms, variety of pills) as often as I can to escape this world / my sick mind. Dangerous, careless, deadly... Yeah, I suppose so but they are actually keeping me Alive to cope/ deal with another day on earth.

Have a Blessed night and be Safe, love ya. ❤
 
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I screwed up

Waiting for the damn bus
Sep 11, 2019
883
My poison is codiene and smoking. I feel it helps me keep my depression & suicidal thoughts in control.. But now during lockdown its becoming difficult to get it as u can't step out and my stock is over. Each day seems like a drag and m getting more depressed by the day ..
 
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Eurus

Eurus

Everything Must Cease.
Sep 30, 2019
200
Weed
 
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Winter_Flower

Always thirsty for summer rain x
May 18, 2019
72
If I could find a supplier this would be my coping mechanism. Unfortunately the only one I know lives literally next door to my parents x
 
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