Under The Graveyard

Under The Graveyard

There is no death. Only a change of worlds.
Jun 24, 2021
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Just like now, I'm buzzing pretty good. I pretty much drink to drown out the voices in my head, or the thoughts that continuously go through it.

I know it doesn't solve the problem, but a break from it helps.

I've been drinking more and more lately, and starting to hope I die from alcohol poisoning.
 
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western_heart

western_heart

trying to save ourself
May 23, 2021
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I used to, after a decade of on-and-off binge drinking it became too much for my body & too easy for me to drink impulsively. So I stopped at 31
 
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Under The Graveyard

Under The Graveyard

There is no death. Only a change of worlds.
Jun 24, 2021
112
I used to, after a decade of on-and-off binge drinking it became too much for my body & too easy for me to drink impulsively. So I stopped at 31
I'm 51, and used to occasionally drink every other day. But as my depression grows worse, so doe my drinking. Now its eceryday and as much as I can until I pass out.
 
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motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
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I've been drinking more and more lately, and starting to hope I die from alcohol poisoning.
It's not easy to achieve alcohol poisoning, especially if you're a heavy drinker...
 
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Celerity

Celerity

shape without form, shade without colour
Jan 24, 2021
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Just like now, I'm buzzing pretty good. I pretty much drink to drown out the voices in my head, or the thoughts that continuously go through it.

I know it doesn't solve the problem, but a break from it helps.

I've been drinking more and more lately, and starting to hope I die from alcohol poisoning.
I do too, but it's working less and less. Pretty hard to die from alcohol poisoning unless you binge. Withdrawals are actually more likely to be fatal if you drink heavily every day, I think. Not a good way to go either way. I have seen people go through withdrawals in the ER. Not pretty. Very risky.
 
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Huntfish34

Huntfish34

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Mar 13, 2020
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Same for me,. I drink fairly heavily for my body size. I drink to block , drown, escape from pretty much Everything. ( Amongst various other substances in combo).

Good , healthy,.. ? Nope, it's a damn Nightmare. But at least I know I am bringing myself That much closer to death. Very fucked and Sick vicious cycle I am in. Fml.
Quite numb and Buzzed right now,. Come to think of it. I just don't care anymore.
 
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brutalus

brutalus

Student
Jun 14, 2021
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im getting fucked up too right now! salud my friends! i drink to your death ;)
 
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Huntfish34

Huntfish34

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Amen 2 that !! Salud ' !
 
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ShadowsFall

Lost and forgotten
Jul 15, 2021
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Just finished drinking 3 small bottles of Wild Turkey 101 proof whiskey (50ml each), mixed with a 20oz mountain dew. Currently working on a 4 pack of Dragons milk bourbon barrel aged stout (14% abv).
 
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AloeGarten

AloeGarten

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May 14, 2021
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just me that thinks drinking makes things worse? i feel 10x more shit and im waay more likely to hurt myself or try something dumb. weed is much nicer if u guys can get it, if ur using it to cope
 
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BluesRunTheGame

BluesRunTheGame

Blackpilled
Dec 15, 2020
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Yep. Day 3 of a bender; it's winding down now. I had to lie about having Covid symptoms earlier to get out of an appointment.
 
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Celerity

Celerity

shape without form, shade without colour
Jan 24, 2021
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Yep. Day 3 of a bender; it's winding down now. I had to lie about having Covid symptoms earlier to get out of an appointment.
I've had to do that too. Nothing makes you realize you're an alcoholic like having to do that.
 
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motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
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just me that thinks drinking makes things worse? i feel 10x more shit and im waay more likely to hurt myself or try something dumb.
That's probably why people who want to die drink
 
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Ramirez

Ramirez

Criminally insane
Jun 10, 2019
396
I drink like crazy. It's the only thing giving me a break from this hell. It makes me very blunt and rude at times. People dont dig that..
 
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brutalus

brutalus

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Jun 14, 2021
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just me that thinks drinking makes things worse? i feel 10x more shit and im waay more likely to hurt myself or try something dumb. weed is much nicer if u guys can get it, if ur using it to cope
buuuuuut, what about both together? :D
 
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Huntfish34

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Mar 13, 2020
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Haha,. I like to have them both together when I possibly can.
 
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Under The Graveyard

Under The Graveyard

There is no death. Only a change of worlds.
Jun 24, 2021
112
It makes me very blunt and rude at times. People dont dig that..
I'm at that point in my life that I don't care if people dig it or not. When I'm drinking, my bluntness doesn't stop where someone's feelings start.
 
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nex

nex

Student
May 3, 2021
152
I drink a lot... to survive. Drinking yourself to death is a very bad idea in my opinion, a method that will just make you feel more miserable without actually getting there. If you want to die, whatever you do, I think alcohol poisoning is a very bad idea. It's not going to work.
 
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Alwaysbadtime

Alwaysbadtime

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Jun 28, 2021
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I can't get drunk anymore. I mean I sometimes drink a lot, but it doesn't change the horrible brain pain I have from stress. I envy folks that enjoy getting drunk or high. Drinking sometimes makes me cry...I feel a headache in the morning just compounding my pissed off brain.
 
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GenTra

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Used to drink a lot of alcohol too, but kinda stopped after giving myself three-day lasting alcohol poisoning.
 
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Ramirez

Criminally insane
Jun 10, 2019
396
Used to drink a lot of alcohol too, but kinda stopped after giving myself three-day lasting alcohol poisoning.
3 days? Damn that must have been a massive amount.
Woke up still drunk from last night straight back to drinking :hihi:
 
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GenTra

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3 days? Damn that must have been a massive amount.
Yeah, I was dumb as hell. Haven't eaten all day (and I'm a pretty light dude as well) and I chugged down 2 x 150ml cups of vodka, so 300ml in total. Felt nice for a few hours but after that it was literally hell, I could not eat, sleep or move and all and had to throw up every 1-2 hours. Got pretty spooked and even called a poison emergency hotline after 24 hours of that, but they told me if it was fatal I would've been dead already. So it was a really bad case, but not bad enough to be hospitalized and they were somewhat right, since I was back on my feet after 3 days. After that, I kinda stay away from it, at least for the foreseeable future. Especially vodka, because the one I drank at least just smelled and tasted like nothing, so it went down extremely easy.
 
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Ramirez

Ramirez

Criminally insane
Jun 10, 2019
396
Yeah, I was dumb as hell. Haven't eaten all day (and I'm a pretty light dude as well) and I chugged down 2 x 150ml cups of vodka, so 300ml in total. Felt nice for a few hours but after that it was literally hell, I could not eat, sleep or move and all and had to throw up every 1-2 hours. Got pretty spooked and even called a poison emergency hotline after 24 hours of that, but they told me if it was fatal I would've been dead already. So it was a really bad case, but not bad enough to be hospitalized and they were somewhat right, since I was back on my feet after 3 days. After that, I kinda stay away from it, at least for the foreseeable future. Especially vodka, because the one I drank at least just smelled and tasted like nothing, so it went down extremely easy.
Sorry you went through that. Sorry to say that but 300 ml of vodka will not give you alcohol poisoning for 3 days. You likely experienced some stomach problems. To have alcohol poisoning for 3 days you would have to drink a fuckton. No offence. I'm sorry you went through that though :hug:
I'm at that point in my life that I don't care if people dig it or not. When I'm drinking, my bluntness doesn't stop where someone's feelings start.
I hear ya! I just hate to cause more pain to ppl already suffering just by being rude and blunt. I try to be considerate but it's hard...
 
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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
1,608
I transitioned to weed from alcohol been binging it on and off for 5 years it's time to put it down for a bit and smoke.
just me that thinks drinking makes things worse? i feel 10x more shit and im waay more likely to hurt myself or try something dumb. weed is much nicer if u guys can get it, if ur using it to cope
alcohol sucks I agree it makes depression worse
 
Ramirez

Ramirez

Criminally insane
Jun 10, 2019
396
I transitioned to weed from alcohol been binging it on and off for 5 years it's time to put it down for a bit and smoke.

alcohol sucks I agree it makes depression worse
I guess it depends. Drugs affect people in different ways. If I'd smoke weed I would get paranoid af. I'm rather paranoid as it is :hihi:. Alc helps with my bad moods the most. But again drugs affect ppl differently.
 
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Ramirez

Criminally insane
Jun 10, 2019
396
I'm at that point in my life that I don't care if people dig it or not. When I'm drinking, my bluntness doesn't stop where someone's feelings start.
Where are you buddy? I am being blunt and rude all by myself xD.
 

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