snooperdooper
Student
- Jan 27, 2024
- 145
no matter what i do i feel like the only trajectory in my recovery is getting worse. there have been fleeting moments of hope but they're fleeting for a reason. it feels like every step i take forward into my recovery diminishes my mental health even more. i was happier when i wanted to kill myself because at least i had a feasible end goal with no more suffering. now it just feels like i am struggling just to get the opportunity to struggle more. things just keep getting worse and worse and i really wanna get better but they just get worse. everything gets worse. why am i such a pussy? why am i so scared of death?
