Do you wish to ctb beacuse of curiosity or desperation?

[username8888]

Some people wish to ctb beacuse of dread, sorrow, anger... or curiosity or something different.

I am neither depressed nor dreadful.

Yes, I find life painful and unjust.

My reason to ctb is, I am just bored being and find eternal painless afterlife satisfying enough.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I just want the cessation of my suffering and my pain

 

[Blurry_Buildings]

Defiintely depression lol, but I think I also just want the pain to go away

 

[anonymousfoxxo]

Life has taken great measures to make sure I suffer greatly. I frankly hate it here, and if life turned it's back on me, everyone turned their backs on me, why wouldn't I do the same towards them...?

I feel like everything I do is completely pointless and I am stuck in an eternal cycle of existing to suffer more.
That is the reason. How and When is a yet to be decided. The If has already been.

Tl;Dr: Desperation. Depression. Curiosity killed the cat, not the fox.

 

[But I need you]

Yea ,I think life is meaningless. There must be a lot of suffering coming into our lives ,but it's pointless to face that suffering .People always say there will be happiness after the suffering , but why we have to face non-stop suffering just for a short happiness moment?
Now I'm not chasing for money , a lover and a great future anymore, because I realize it's meaningless. Ctb is a choice for us, and I chose it soberly , I would rather not exist anymore. Anyway, it's just my opinion.

 

[R_N]

I just feel I reached the end a while ago. I don't want to interact with the outside world in my condition.

The only reason I am still here is because I am able to be a shut in.

 

[PixelPlant]

i have some mental illnesses that i struggle with and i don't fit in society. then i isolate myself for some time. i rather die than reminding myself that i'm living such a garbage life

 

[RosebyAnyName]

For me, I feel like if I ctb it will help me gain control over an unpredictable future (I guess that indirectly means desperation). Life just feels like I'm being pulled in every direction at once and it's overwhelming, but if I ctb then there will only be one possible future for me and I won't have to worry about it anymore.

 

[1legger]

I'd have to say desperation. I feel like I've done everything wrong and now I'm suffering great consequences. Along with having having long standing depression and suicidal thoughts as early as I can remember.

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

life isnt fun and i want to escape it
nothing to be curious about in death and suicide, as an atheist i know exactly what comes after: nothing. black void no sound no light just pure peace and ultimate neutrality

 

[ohyouknow]

Neither? I'm def not curious. I don't feel like I'm desperate because there are things I can do to keep myself busy while I wait out this life, and my life isn't anywhere near as bad as it could be. Like, I'm not homeless, I have a family, my physical health is probably average, etc. I'm just tired and bored. I feel no emotions, so the only reason I have to do anything is duty. I dutifully go to work to make money to pay for my children to go to college. I dutifully clean the house, etc. I get no emotional benefit from it, so I don't want to do it any longer than I absolutely have to.

 

[yeahokbuddyboy]

Probably more desperation for me. I probably differ from a lot of people here in that I do believe in a good God so the possibility of an eternal soul is very on the table in my mind. But thinking about that and what it really means still freaks the hell out of me so I try not to get too curious or think too deeply about that side of it.

 

[BlazingBob]

Definitely desperation. I'm sick, alone, endure daily abuse and humiliation, and will be homeless soon. My body is torturing me. My life is definitely despairing, and miserable, and not worth living.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Desperation. I want out of all this. I'm probably more scared than curious about what death is like and what comes after. I'm really hoping it's nothing.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

It's clearly desperation or I should better say I'm dreading a further decline and therefore hardships in my life I just don't want to experience any further decline, pain, suffering all that that come with such a process when life is fucked up and everything failed.

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case I just see it as always preferable to cease existing no matter what. Existence is just a harmful imposition that causes suffering so to me wanting to die is all that feels rational. I don't see any value as existing as a conscious being in this hellish and harmful reality, I find it so tragic how life even existed at all, existence is the true problem. I envy those who die as then existence isn't their problem and they are no longer cursed with the ability to suffer.

 

[username8888]

The only reason I am still here is because I am able to be a shut in.

Living only on lentils and water can allow me to save as much money as I want in this broken economy. So I am grateful for these humble starchy foods. If I had continued consuming junk foods like I used to do a lot. I would have already gone crazy. At least I have some, control.

 

[jessisme]

To escape a fate worse than death.

 

[username8888]

To escape a fate worse than death.

I take it as fact for me.

 

[sserafim]

Some people wish to ctb beacuse of dread, sorrow, anger... or curiosity or something different.

I am neither depressed nor dreadful.

Yes, I find life painful and unjust.

My reason to ctb is, I am just bored being and find eternal painless afterlife satisfying enough.

My reason to ctb is one of desperation. I just find life so boring and meaningless, and my parents expect me to get a job and make my own living soon (I'm a hiki/shut-in rn but they want me to be independent). They want me to be "productive" and to "do something". I'm neurodivergent (Asperger's, ADHD, social anxiety) so I'll never fit into society, but they don't seem to realize this. They always hold me to neurotypical standards. I honestly never expected to live until adulthood and I wish I never did. I just want to escape having to be a real adult. I never wanted to be one in the first place. The thought of adulthood (being a wageslave for ~50 years) sickens me.