Do you wish a family member or friend found your account on this forum?

[sea333]

Title.

Part of the reason I made an account here was because I was hoping my mother or father would find out I was on SS and realize how sad I was and comfort me. That was the reason I used my personal email rather than using an alternative email. I even registered in front of them while we were eating on my phone.

The scenario I was imagining in my head was that my mom would see a suicide forum on my phone, whether it be on my browser history or through the email verification notification or whatever, and then take me out to walk at the local park or get ice cream. There, we would talk, and she would comfort me and make me feel better. Then, we'd go home and do something together. Board game, maybe. It's very childish, but I think something simple like that would make me feel a lot better. I'd feel like a huge attention-seeker if I were to go up to either of my parents on my own though, so I haven't made any move to do anything yet.

What about you? How would you feel if a family member or friend found your account here? Is it something you would feel positively about?

 

[woofwag]

Not really, but I have a friend who I'll be giving access to my account posthumously so they can see all my posts. I have no idea if they'll read anything of what I've written on here. But I figure sometimes people have ways of grieving where they like to see this kinda stuff, so maybe it'll help them understand more why I did it. They love reading and writing and have said before that my writing is important so, who knows, maybe they'll find some peace in the stupid pointless posts I make on here.

Oh and that's a really sweet picture. I hope you're able to have something like that happen.

 

[qwert3948]

i've thought about it a lot before. in the end the true wish is to be seen and cared for, not to be found out..

 

[deny_conformity]

Title.

Part of the reason I made an account here was because I was hoping my mother or father would find out I was on SS and realize how sad I was and comfort me. That was the reason I used my personal email rather than using an alternative email. I even registered in front of them while we were eating on my phone.

The scenario I was imagining in my head was that my mom would see a suicide forum on my phone, whether it be on my browser history or through the email verification notification or whatever, and then take me out to walk at the local park or get ice cream. There, we would talk, and she would comfort me and make me feel better. Then, we'd go home and do something together. Board game, maybe. It's very childish, but I think something simple like that would make me feel a lot better. I'd feel like a huge attention-seeker if I were to go up to either of my parents on my own though, so I haven't made any move to do anything yet.

What about you? How would you feel if a family member or friend found your account here? Is it something you would feel positively about?

I'm not sure it would change me into anyway if a family member found my account, I'm completely non-contact so I wouldn't know. They already knew I was suicidal and not coping and weren't doing anything to make my life bearable.

My housemate (and close friend) knows I post on a suicide support forum but she knows she's unable to help me (I love her to bits but she's about emotionally supportive as a guy ).

I told my friends but they are unable to support me, normal people are a bit of a rabbit in the headlights when it comes to suicidality.

I told my care coordinator and she's concerned but understands my reasons.

I'm here to feel like I'm not alone and to talk to like minded people, I'd like for someone to see it who could affect me, someone who will just cuddle me and sat I'm not alone and they support me but I don't currently have that person in my life.

So yes but also no. I'm here for a reason and most of that is I don't have someone in my life capable of getting me off here.

 

[sanctionedusage]

god no

i lie about small irrelevant details on here to anonymize myself

 

[violetforever]

someone asked this question a few days ago and i said no. while that's still mostly true, i wouldn't mind one person finding this account. it would save me a lot of explaining myself to them. if they read everything i wrote here then they would just know everything. for better or for worse.

 

[whywere]

Well with me having no family nor friends at all, it would never happen.

Except here, I have no friends, as whenever it might be a friendship, they always ask for money or a favor right off the bat which kills it instantly.

Walter

 

[kuroshimi]

Not sure about family member and real life acquaintances, since there are many factors involved (for example, language barrier), but I still have some hope that some of my internet friends will find my presence here and comfort me. I even thought about talk about this site directly with them one day and say that I am actually here. They already know that I'm suicidal and talking with them was actually helpful.