Do you think, my mother would really be sad if I CTB?

[Tnatalie]

I know you don't know her but... I truly doubt her reassurements that she loves me, I can't ctb etc... In fact, Im just a huge problem for her. She doesn't have any benefits from me, literally. Im unable to work and just an emotional luggage.

 

[kufajoy]

Yea off course she will be sad and traumatized but it also your life. If you are in intolerable pain,you have right to decide. I'm planning to leave the House and die somewhere else so she doesn't have to see my agonized face.

 

[Alpacachino]

There's a special bond between mother and child that's pretty unique and different from other relationships.One of the main reasons I'm still alive is because I don't want to put my mother through the pain of losing her only son.

This same woman will get up from the sofa with great difficulty, her legs and knees creaking and wobbling, and hurry to the kitchen to help me when I'm doing dishes on her own accord even when I tell her no . She's a queen.She had a very successful career and She gets no benefits from me either. Still she loves me so much.

Your mother will miss you terribly. I'm sure.Treasure her.

 

[peacefulnights]

I know you don't know her but... I truly doubt her reassurements that she loves me, I can't ctb etc... In fact, Im just a huge problem for her. She doesn't have any benefits from me, literally. Im unable to work and just an emotional luggage.

Yea, no matter how hard I try I am the same for my mother. I know deep down she despises me, because many times it shows. I love my parents so much but I know I was born out of wedlock and was a mistake. They see me as the reason their lives went downhill since then and when I turned 18 cut me off emotionally, financially, housing wise, etc. I don't blame them but it sucks that it happened this way.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I imagine she would still be very sad. Even in relationships that are difficult, a death is so final. Even after natural death, I've experienced and witnessed guilt in others. Did we do enough for them? Were we patient enough with them? Maybe they annoyed us at times but, shouldn't we have been more understanding?

The problem with death is- there are no more chances to make ammends. If there are regrets- we're stuck with them. And- we wouldn't feel such intense regret if we didn't love them. So, I think probably- even in very strained relationships, there's still sadness when it's over.

Plus- it's not like cancelling the milk or a subscription. They lose all of us. Even the hope that we may have gotten better- which I think parents are especially keen to hold on to. They probably can't bear the thought that we'll struggle through the rest of our lives.

Sorry though. I'm not meaning to guilt trip you. Just refering to what I've seen in others.