@SuchAStrangeWorld just exposed me the idea that everybody is not equal about the assessement of life, like there are athletes who won't turn upside down limits if they are not born with the appropriate genetics. It's impossible to neglect this reality. Just here, we can count isolated SS members who knew it bold since babies, they will never have a grip about any good of human life for x and y justified reasons. Which makes it so righteous to try to escape at all cost what feels like an unwanted trap.
On the other hand, many also have known varied periods where the colours were flickering towards other perspectives. Just the early childhood is a testimonial of a shift of perception before our anchors are put to the test and often get corrupted, but also tormented. It's difficult to confirm whether or not and to which extent our fibers are not victims of external factors which bend our core nature. It could be or it could not be. It develops with complexity.
Instead of hypothetising over a truth, as long as you could be under influence of FILTERS which are also applying out of control pressures, imho it may not be the perfect time to ask the question or you encounter the danger to be fooled by randomness. However, if you take the steps to try everything with empowerement, maintain the view of condemnation without appeal, then it really is game over.
In conclusion, this site is full of ressources, like the threads of @Sensei for instance. If one can afford it - sadly not everyone is in a position to even reach appropriate support to begin with - I'd at least try but with attendance, new found balance and creativity (not with damaging psych drugs. Thankfully some new breed of psychiatrists also emerge with alternative solutions, just rarely reimbursed) in order to attempt to be free of filters once again in a lifetime, like you've already known it before, to simply meet again with your inner self for verification.
As for me, I could grow teary to have not realise this opportunity 20 years ago. Didn't accept the help that was given for free, didn't accept myself and my failures, didn't accept my worth to stand up. For the worse, instead I deployed a legendary stubborn opposition belonging to own certitudes. Late people here have proven me wrong. Thank you's