Sometime you see how nature seems to be playing with you and it happens a sequence of phenomena that drives you in a specific direction. Several ocurrences that guides you to a specific point in life.
Have you experienced this?
Tell us more about you experience.
I know EXACTLY what you mean.
In fact I made my own thread about this recently.
I don't think "hidden forces" in the right way to describe it.
Just that things seen to work out in such a way to push you in a given direction.
My depression started out 11 years ago in 2009.
There was no obvious external cause.
But now, 11 years later, it has torn my life apart.
Everything has gone wrong over the last 11 years and it has been one thing after another!
I have financial issues (as well as other issues), so I thought again about taking my life.
I came across sodium pentobarbital, but thought it would be out of my price range.
Then, all if a sudden, I'm told that I have a significant tax refund due to me!
It's funny how some people's lives are so blessed, while in other people's lives the only things that seem to work out us their desire to end it.