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Sad_Autistic_boy_101
When I die, you'll love me.
- Nov 19, 2019
- 448
This is a genuine question!
My entire life I've felt that I've had a curse placed upon me since I was born. I've had this feeling from a young age but whenever I talk to people about it, they say don't be daft or that I'm just being negative.. but once they spend even a small amount of time in my life they admit that everything seems to go wrong for me. I was told I should write a book about it as the things that happen sound like they come out of a movie.
Everything I do always goes wrong, the people I care about always die (which I know is genuinely part of life but most died young or in strange circumstances) Any time I try and get help for my Autism, there is always some sort of strange event that happens that prevents it or it gets taken away. For instance I finally have a support worker that is actually helping me after 5 years of being stuck in my bedroom. Then the Organisation has decided that managers can no longer support people so they are taking her away from me after working with her for just a few months and leaving me without support again. I admit this may just seem unlucky that it directly affects me.. but this type of things has happened in my entire life to the point where I've had no support because of it. I was also put in the wrong social care and now they have finally fixed that after 5 years, the meeting is now being postponed by professionals and being moved back again and again. So it's become impossible to access any sort of support system.
I feel like i'm destined to just be stuck in my room with no support. I'm highly dependent on support so it's not like I can just go out and try to cope without it.
I just feel like i'm being punished for something but I don't know what I've done wrong. I apologise if this seems like i'm just complaining. I'm just frustrated that no matter how hard I try to improve my life or myself, that the world decides to do everything possible to prevent it.
My entire life I've felt that I've had a curse placed upon me since I was born. I've had this feeling from a young age but whenever I talk to people about it, they say don't be daft or that I'm just being negative.. but once they spend even a small amount of time in my life they admit that everything seems to go wrong for me. I was told I should write a book about it as the things that happen sound like they come out of a movie.
Everything I do always goes wrong, the people I care about always die (which I know is genuinely part of life but most died young or in strange circumstances) Any time I try and get help for my Autism, there is always some sort of strange event that happens that prevents it or it gets taken away. For instance I finally have a support worker that is actually helping me after 5 years of being stuck in my bedroom. Then the Organisation has decided that managers can no longer support people so they are taking her away from me after working with her for just a few months and leaving me without support again. I admit this may just seem unlucky that it directly affects me.. but this type of things has happened in my entire life to the point where I've had no support because of it. I was also put in the wrong social care and now they have finally fixed that after 5 years, the meeting is now being postponed by professionals and being moved back again and again. So it's become impossible to access any sort of support system.
I feel like i'm destined to just be stuck in my room with no support. I'm highly dependent on support so it's not like I can just go out and try to cope without it.
I just feel like i'm being punished for something but I don't know what I've done wrong. I apologise if this seems like i'm just complaining. I'm just frustrated that no matter how hard I try to improve my life or myself, that the world decides to do everything possible to prevent it.