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Voldmort

Experienced
Sep 23, 2018
287
There are days when I want to vent everything, but I know it will give shit.
My friends and teachers have already made themselves available to help me, for it is remarkable when I am depressed, but I never have the courage.
 
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miauimon

miauimon

Member
Oct 16, 2018
29
I'm glad that your friends are able to cope with the situation, my friends are all overwhelmed with this topic and so I have to deal with it alone.
 
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Maravillosa

Maravillosa

Господи помилуй — мир в Україні!
Sep 7, 2018
689
I have told one real life friend about feeling suicidal. She was quite concerned. I also told my brother. He thinks that suicide is selfish.
 
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Miro

Member
Oct 17, 2018
48
There's nobody to tell anymore. When there were people, they knew I was depressed but not the extent of it.
 
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DreamFreedom

DreamFreedom

Thane
Oct 3, 2018
68
Lol what friends
 
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Fucking loving it

Fucking loving it

Specialist
Sep 3, 2018
378
I have no friends. My family knows... they have lost faith in me.
 
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millefeui

Enlightened
Mar 31, 2018
1,034
The one friend I have knows, but he pretends not to.
 
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jake

Member
Aug 14, 2018
16
i have always felt that this is strictly mine to deal with. it is unfair to burden anyone else with it, even if they express a willingness to help. i cannot explain it in a way that makes sense to anyone but me and even if i could, no one can possibly know what to say or do. it makes everything awkward and puts an unreasonable strain on the other person who cannot know how to help and feels a responsibility that is not theirs. i made the mistake of telling other people on two occasions. years ago, i broke down and told my wife who interpreted it, at different times, as a plea for attention (it wasn't), an effort to blame her (i'm not even sure what i was supposed to be blaming her for), and, most often, as an incredibly selfish thing to even think about because it would destroy my kids (she grossly underestimates them and overestimates my place in their lives). the second time i told anyone was in a supposedly anonymous message to a suicide help service. that one resulted in the police showing up at my place of employment (bizarrely, in full tactical gear), and me being involuntarily committed to a psychiatric hospital for almost 2 weeks, after which i was fired from my job.

whether it is a good idea to tell friends or family (or anyone else) about what you're thinking depends on the other people in your life, i think. but for me, i will never, ever tell anyone anything. i will carry it all with me to my grave -- and very soon.
 
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EternalSanction

EternalSanction

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Jun 7, 2018
248
I avoid talking about my feelings with any of my friends. One time I was drunk and fucked up though; luckily for me he brushed it off and blamed it on me being drunk so I got away with it.
 
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jaemus12

jaemus12

Earth’s Parasite
May 11, 2018
562
Nope. Never had, never will until I die.

Although I do joke with one friend telling her that "if I stop replying one day you know to look at the obituary" because I eat too much junk food or dont exercise much or something along the lines of that.

All of my feelings are bottled and I release them on Sanctioned Suicide
:smiling:
 
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LifeSick

LifeSick

Eat the rich or die!
Sep 20, 2018
167
My girlfriend knows, but she's also suicidal.
 
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Trashcan

Trashcan

Trash
Aug 31, 2018
1,234
Some of my friends know about my mental history and that I've attempted suicide, but they have no idea I still think about it. Same with my family. But some of my friends have no clue about any of this. But most of my friends I met in the mental hospital.
 
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Lra888

Lra888

Enlightened
Sep 30, 2018
1,140
Vaguely. Not that I'm planning.
 
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TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
6,813
Nobody knows that I am thinking of suicide, let alone planning for it and I cannot risk getting sent to a psych ward against my will or other consequences. They do know that I am depressed (or at least from what I deduced), but just not as much as thinking about suicide nor planning it. I plan to keep it quiet until my grave as I am NOT willing to take any chances with something that has very high stakes.
 
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Jen Erik

Jen Erik

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Oct 12, 2018
637
I have three friends I talk about it with, but only because they feel the same way. Although it's most likely I won't tell them when I am ready to complete the plan because they have expressed things to me that suggest they would attempt to intervene.
 
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blueming

blueming

if we can stand outside the borders of time
Sep 21, 2018
253
Years ago I told some friends. I thought they cared about me, they might offer me a little comfort, but instead telling them isolated me. They started treating me differently, basically avoided and ignored me. I haven't shared my feelings with anyone else irl since.
 
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millefeui

Enlightened
Mar 31, 2018
1,034
i have always felt that this is strictly mine to deal with. it is unfair to burden anyone else with it, even if they express a willingness to help.
The reason I told him (the friend) was because I wanted him to leave my life, for his own good. He refused. Even nowadays I still sometimes bring up the fact I will kill myself in a few years and probably break his heart, that is not too late to break his friendship with me, but it never works. I like him, don't get me wrong, I just want to hurt people the least possible.
 
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MachineGunDani

Specialist
Sep 10, 2018
336
My bf is the only one who knows I'm suicidal. Everyone else knows I'm depressed tho
 
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Schopenhauer

Enlightened
Oct 3, 2018
1,133
I don't have any actual friends, but if I had I wouldn't tell them. They can never understand how it feels.

Only one person knows about it, and she's suicidal too, so she never judged me.
 
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iglooblimp

Another parasite to Earth
Oct 17, 2018
75
Made the mistake of telling a friend I know in real life. They weren't helpful at all. If anything, it seemed as though they were guilt tripping me for wanting to ctb. It's easier to tell people online, but not a lot of them are helpful. Here, though, the people are more understanding.
 
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Sayo

Sayo

Not 2B
Aug 22, 2018
520
My partner knows. Actually, most of the friends I've had in life have been aware since it's difficult to hide some kinds of drama. I just don't know that it's possible to not drag the ones who could understand down with me.

(I've mostly only been able to associate with other mentally ill people past a certain point.)
 
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wanttodie

wanttodie

Enlightened
Apr 19, 2018
1,802
now one know I'm suicidal.
 
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Rocky M

Rocky M

I'm A Monster
Jun 20, 2018
213
Only one. She's one of the reasons I want to ctb. Many here have heard me repeat my Story over and over, I won't say it again, but I feel guilty about everything I did, I shouldn't've told her.
 
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kaworu

Member
Aug 27, 2018
6
I don't have "friends", I have people who pretend to like me and pretend to laugh and share amusing anecdotes on social situations. Those are not people I could just spill my beans to or ask for emotional help. Maybe they would help if I asked assistance to move or if my car broke down. With this? Nope!

So I basically don't have anyone to tell, so my problem is sort of solved by itself.
 
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Deafsn0w

Deafsn0w

I will buy you a dog if you like my posts
Sep 4, 2018
2,488
i used to tell my friends that i was gonna kill myself and they called the cops on me. The cops brought me to the hospital. So i learned to keep it to myself. I cant tell anyone that i'm about to commit suicide.
 
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Schopenhauer

Enlightened
Oct 3, 2018
1,133
i used to tell my friends that i was gonna kill myself and they called the cops on me. The cops brought me to the hospital. So i learned to keep it to myself. I cant tell anyone that i'm about to commit suicide.

Wow, gotta hate this fucking society. If you tell someone you want to rob a bank no one can put you in jail preemptively. Talk about suicide and it's allowed to lock you up in a hospital. Even if it's temporary, it's still outrageous.
 
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oldgray

oldgray

i wish i'd melt with the snow
Oct 19, 2018
82
i have no friends but hypothetically speaking: if i couldn't be honest with them about my feelings i wouldn't consider them friends in the first place.
 
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TheGoodGuy

TheGoodGuy

Visionary
Aug 27, 2018
2,999
Nope nobody want to listen to me both my brothers told me a few years back that they didn´t want to hear about it because it made them depressed to hear about it and I have no friend so I don´t tell anyone. However recently when I planned to ctb in August I got really desperate and anxious and was driving around at night and was really close to calling an old childhood friend who is from Norway but recently moved to Denmark but I decided against it because I know nobody will get it the only people who would get suicide is people with suicidal thoughts everyone else has just one goal when you tell them you´re suicidal and that is to stop you from doing it and that is very biased. Talking with suicidal people like on this forum it isn´t JUST about wanting to die we can talk pros and cons but we can´t do that with family or friends because they want agree with the pro´s we come up with for them "it´s just about being positive" smh!
 
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