I am ambivalent. I think rationally it is more save to wear them. (In my opinion). But it is so fucking hot. And honestly it is kind of stressful to wear them in this heat. And for my stability I try to avoid stress.
I am still scared of long-covid. I don't know if I ever had covid. I barely make any tests. I am kind of isolated so it is unlikely that I got it.
Some people look at you in a weird way if you still wear the masks. Especially in areas where it is voluntary. Though excactly due to these people I kind of like to have them on. They look at me as if I was delusional or hysterical but I am convinced that science is on my side.
There was always this special allure for me to be the outsider. I was bullied in school for being different. But it also gave me this feeling that maybe just the majority is wrong. Why was there any reason to bully an obese child like me? The bullies/ or majority was not right on that. So I concluded that the majority might be wrong in some instances. And I try to keep true to myself. The irony is when the bullying stopped I tried to lose weight. It was kind of paradoxially. But to that time my first manic episode started. Not sure. Maybe it was coincidence.
I was always the anti-drugs guy. So many young people try different drugs. For me this always was too dangerous. To be honest I was pretty right on that. Due to my genes drugs cause severe mental illness in my case. Though due to child abuse I developed my conditions anyway.
So I conclude there are different reason why I wear the mask sometimes. I am a tentative person. I try to act rationally. The mask does not hurt me. I think the majority is too careless on it. But on the other side the mask reallly stresses me out. And my mental condition is more dangerous than the current covid variant.
I like to be the rebel. And currently you are the rebel if you were a mask. Though I never wanted to be the rebel who rejects to wear one.
Moreover I like Asian culture. Wearing masks is very widespread in Asia. They do this in order to protect themselves and other people. I like that. I hope that it is still socially accepted to wear one even after the pandemic. But I doubt that.
I am still scared of long-covid. I don't know if I ever had covid. I barely make any tests. I am kind of isolated so it is unlikely that I got it.
Some people look at you in a weird way if you still wear the masks. Especially in areas where it is voluntary. Though excactly due to these people I kind of like to have them on. They look at me as if I was delusional or hysterical but I am convinced that science is on my side.
There was always this special allure for me to be the outsider. I was bullied in school for being different. But it also gave me this feeling that maybe just the majority is wrong. Why was there any reason to bully an obese child like me? The bullies/ or majority was not right on that. So I concluded that the majority might be wrong in some instances. And I try to keep true to myself. The irony is when the bullying stopped I tried to lose weight. It was kind of paradoxially. But to that time my first manic episode started. Not sure. Maybe it was coincidence.
I was always the anti-drugs guy. So many young people try different drugs. For me this always was too dangerous. To be honest I was pretty right on that. Due to my genes drugs cause severe mental illness in my case. Though due to child abuse I developed my conditions anyway.
So I conclude there are different reason why I wear the mask sometimes. I am a tentative person. I try to act rationally. The mask does not hurt me. I think the majority is too careless on it. But on the other side the mask reallly stresses me out. And my mental condition is more dangerous than the current covid variant.
I like to be the rebel. And currently you are the rebel if you were a mask. Though I never wanted to be the rebel who rejects to wear one.
Moreover I like Asian culture. Wearing masks is very widespread in Asia. They do this in order to protect themselves and other people. I like that. I hope that it is still socially accepted to wear one even after the pandemic. But I doubt that.
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