do you plan on doing something big before you ctb?

[dysthymia]

I want to do something super radical before I ctb. I won't mention it here though.

Or I run away from my home and keep on running and see where I end up. Bad idea normally bc I'm female, but if I'm going to ctb, might as well do it. Ofc there's a decent chance i'll get trafficked.

Maybe I'll run away to the wilderness. Little me was so desperate to leave society, I want to fulfill her wish by doing this. Hopefully I die of some disease while in the wilderness.

Not radical/big, but I was thinking of making a IED and using that to ctb. I'll go far away from civilisation and then detonate it. IEDs are simple to make, I've made small ones before, and they can hold a crazy amount of power.

 

[FutureHanger]

left my brother a really long note of advice scheduled for one of his birthdays if that counts! it's like 7k words long

 

[Abyssal]

Nope, well my date is based around a concert I hope to go to, but I wouldn't consider it part of my ctb plans.

 

[mortuarymary]

Food shopping, get all my fave treats and feast.

 

[Trakehner]

I've thought about doing something dramatic before finally going through with ctb, but haven't totally made up my mind yet.

 

[turbomightbegone]

not really big, and it'll sound really fucking stupid, but I'd like to animate one last thing before I go. something that finally itches all the ideas and stories inside my dumb little brain. someone that fulfils my dreams. Im trying to pick up on animation once again after over a year of heavy art block,, I hope to leave one last animation before I go and rest. A source of entertainment to randoms who scroll through videos endlessly, and a final middle finger to my family for overworking me and turning my dreams into nightmares.

 

[Bartlebee]

I want to release an album. I have so many songs that I've released but I took them all down. I really hate my art and music but I have that compulsion to create.

Swan song event kinda thing. Something decent to leave to the world so I don't just fade away forever.

 

[onbekend]

Maybe I'll go out on a shopping spree with the little amount of money I already have, and buy one last thing for everyone I knew. It can be like an apology gift to all the people who I know I've wronged and betrayed before I end the burden that I've caused all of them.
I mean, If I'm gonna go out, why not do it on a more positive note anyway?

 

[throneofdispair03]

no. life is pointless for me so why bother.

 

[Morpho]

I would like to buy and read another series of books before I kill myself

 

[Thanksforeverything]

Honestly, I think I'm just going to be too exhausted to do anything meaningful by the time I'm ready to do it. So probably just going to do something that makes me feel a little bit of comfort in the end. I've been curating my suicide playlist for almost 3 years now, so that I suppose will be the only thing I'll listen to as I drift off.

Also, just as a caution, IED's, particularly homemade ones are pretty unstable. I don't know what you consider as "Radical" but please exercise utmost caution to not drag any unsuspecting person into the mix.

 

[kawaiiphantom]

not really big, and it'll sound really fucking stupid, but I'd like to animate one last thing before I go. something that finally itches all the ideas and stories inside my dumb little brain. someone that fulfils my dreams. Im trying to pick up on animation once again after over a year of heavy art block,, I hope to leave one last animation before I go and rest. A source of entertainment to randoms who scroll through videos endlessly, and a final middle finger to my family for overworking me and turning my dreams into nightmares.

I don't think that's stupid at all, I think that's really awesome :] I hope you're able to do that and I hope it turns out how you envisioned it!! I've considered doing the same thing as well