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Exhausted546
Student
- Dec 1, 2025
- 186
I'm starting to think I may ctb outside but I don't want attention at all. Horrified at the thought m
Although it's freezing cold outside and there's ton of snow, I just remembered there's a small neighborhood park I can ctb in about 3-5 min walk away.
I'm a recluse so nobody in the neighborhood knows me, I'd do it in the middle of the night, maybe even tonight.
Pros:
-I don't feel rushed (typically only have 1h window each day where Im alone at home, I'm never ready when the window comes)
-Dad doesn't have to find me
-It doesn't devalue the house that my dad plans to sell in a few months
Cons:
-Its freezing outside, have to walk in alot of snow
-Definitely gonna have people walk their dog in the early hours of the morning stumble on me. So I guess it might be rushed too
-I'm a low-key person,I hate attention, I'm horrified at the thought of my death being broadcasted in local news or there being news article with my name on there
Does that happen? Thankfully I searched my area + suicide and most articles stay vague unless it's a murder-suicide,that's when the full names are given
Although it's freezing cold outside and there's ton of snow, I just remembered there's a small neighborhood park I can ctb in about 3-5 min walk away.
I'm a recluse so nobody in the neighborhood knows me, I'd do it in the middle of the night, maybe even tonight.
Pros:
-I don't feel rushed (typically only have 1h window each day where Im alone at home, I'm never ready when the window comes)
-Dad doesn't have to find me
-It doesn't devalue the house that my dad plans to sell in a few months
Cons:
-Its freezing outside, have to walk in alot of snow
-Definitely gonna have people walk their dog in the early hours of the morning stumble on me. So I guess it might be rushed too
-I'm a low-key person,I hate attention, I'm horrified at the thought of my death being broadcasted in local news or there being news article with my name on there
Does that happen? Thankfully I searched my area + suicide and most articles stay vague unless it's a murder-suicide,that's when the full names are given