"Blossom" by Dani Paradox
I often stop and ask myself,
"What am I fighting for?"
In my mind I'm trapped inside a room,
pounding on the door
Yet no one hears my screams and cries
Here all my desperation lies
I find myself scrambling on the floor
These nights are all so lonely
So cold and alone
I wish I had someone to hold me
and that I could call my own
A girl to love and treat me right
Who I can curl next to and sleep with at night
How nice it would be to feel at home
It's so hard for me to describe
The exquisite pain that I feel inside
I feel like I'm being dragged
out to sea by a rip tide
There's no swimming back to shore
and I just can't take any more
I wish there was somewhere that I could run and hide
There is no where, however
And I just can't get away
Thoughts and feelings chasing me
All throughout the day
Always lurking deep within
To remind me of the place I'm in
It's traumatizing to know that I'm here to stay
The power of a friendship
and the power of a loss
Believing what you think is right
and getting double crossed
It's all so funny, really
A neverending chain
My life has always been anything but plain
Always hiding behind a mask
and building a facade
Managing to make it through
but always feeling odd
It was strange to know the day would come
When things would feel right
A vision of my life as me came into my sight
And so it came to pass
That I would start anew
Although very lonely
With few to talk to
One day things will be different
As I can only hope
Or else my life will always have been nothing but a joke
The faith I have is blind
and maybe even false
A vision that's more promising
would be to stop my pulse
Yet, still I cling to the string of hope
and take it all some more
I often stop and ask myself, "What am I fighting for?"