All I personally wish and hope for is to cease existing, I just want peace from all terrible unnecessary suffering in this existence I always saw as the most cruel mistake, I'd never wish for existence and I see existence as an abomination that just causes endless amounts of cruelty and suffering until death takes away all anyway, to me human existence truly is the most futile, torturous burden. I just wish to be permanently free from it but of course I'm enslaved in this existence that was so tragically imposed without the option to just painlessly die in peace and never suffer ever again, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence and I only hope for death as only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer, only non-existence can solve what I see as the ultimate problem that is existence itself, I'd always prefer to painlessly cease existing than suffer in this existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway.