No. I never question my decision to kill these monstrous cells they call a human body for many reasons each reason that could be enough by itself.
The only reason i see why i shouldn't now is that i might fail and remain alive with brain damage. that's it otherwise i see no objective reason to live.
all this work , bs , chorse, humiliations, injustitce , threats, diseases 1000 more horrible things to put up with all this and more for no reason at all
There's no reason to do anything they tell us , to "fight to live" , to "enjoy" yourself , to have children etc. all i'm doing is getting older and every day being under threat of something really horrible happening to me all for no reason to "enjoy" a clickbait youtube video , social media or other addction.
And i hate the so called "pleasurable things the most .because those are the things that keep me here the things that are stopping me from suicide. but they are meaningless addictions imo that have me under threat of extreme torture and putting up with all these horrible things.
Of course for hours i go on autopilot like everyone else doing old stupid habits or doing crap i have to do like work or chores solve other problems . But when i start to actually think about life or my situation i never question that i have to kill myself. I mean i have many many reasons each one is alone enough to kill myself asap
but another that no one even knows or thinks of is that . i'm just monstrous cells . it's the same cell that evolved 4 biliion then 2 billion years into a more "complex" eukaryotytic cell.